ladybird64
15-02-09, 21:24
Sorry in advance, mind is racing so I need to get this down.
I have been fighting off a bit of depression for a while now, doing ok but because of circumstances at home, my anxiety is high a lot of the time.
Some of you know about my daughter with special needs but there are other things going on which are contributing, I cannot write about them in case there is someone out there that recognises who I am, this is a great fear of mine.
I don't want to mention them when I go into chat because I don't want to be known as a moaner or to bring the mood down there, they are all so kind.
I won't go to the doctor about it because I don't want this on my records, definitely don't want meds (would become another thing to deal with) and I guess they would want to refer me to someone else.
Am I really backing myself into a corner? I want to get myself better, at least to function reasonably well without having to go to anybody else.
I know some of you have done this with the Claire Weekes books, I have tried them but only half-heartedly. Is it possible to recover when in a situation that is almost constantly stressful..it must be, if anyone knows or has done it please tell me how.
I know this is taking a toll on my health, I seem to have aged 10 yrs in a few months and others have mentioned that I look rough. (with friends like that..:shrug: )
I have to believe in myself, I can't rely on anyone else. All therapy is about making personal changes isn't it so perhaps I can make these changes by myself, I definitely need to do it soon because I'm exhausted. Online courses perhaps, my urgent need at the moment is to be able to calm myself and to switch off from what going on around me, to have some space for myself because I feel like I'm suffocating. Can't change the situation so need to change how I react to it.
Any help please.
I have been fighting off a bit of depression for a while now, doing ok but because of circumstances at home, my anxiety is high a lot of the time.
Some of you know about my daughter with special needs but there are other things going on which are contributing, I cannot write about them in case there is someone out there that recognises who I am, this is a great fear of mine.
I don't want to mention them when I go into chat because I don't want to be known as a moaner or to bring the mood down there, they are all so kind.
I won't go to the doctor about it because I don't want this on my records, definitely don't want meds (would become another thing to deal with) and I guess they would want to refer me to someone else.
Am I really backing myself into a corner? I want to get myself better, at least to function reasonably well without having to go to anybody else.
I know some of you have done this with the Claire Weekes books, I have tried them but only half-heartedly. Is it possible to recover when in a situation that is almost constantly stressful..it must be, if anyone knows or has done it please tell me how.
I know this is taking a toll on my health, I seem to have aged 10 yrs in a few months and others have mentioned that I look rough. (with friends like that..:shrug: )
I have to believe in myself, I can't rely on anyone else. All therapy is about making personal changes isn't it so perhaps I can make these changes by myself, I definitely need to do it soon because I'm exhausted. Online courses perhaps, my urgent need at the moment is to be able to calm myself and to switch off from what going on around me, to have some space for myself because I feel like I'm suffocating. Can't change the situation so need to change how I react to it.
Any help please.