CJ
18-02-09, 01:11
I'm not sure if this is the right place but here goes.
I'm 19 and I'm studying at university.
I would say that up until a few months ago I was a confident, happy go lucky person.
I was always the first person on the dance floor and the first person to volunteer if anything needed doing.
But now it's different. I get nervous all the time. I'm constantly scared that people on the street are thinking bad things about me. I never volunteer answers in lectures or seminars incase people laugh at me. I hardly go out. I sit in my room on my own for hours. If I do go out I'm terrible company...I snap at people, I ignore them and basically treat them like rubbish.
I can't sleep at night, I'm restless and lay awake worrying about not being able to sleep. Then I find it so difficult to get up in the morning and can't concentrate during the day, but by 10 at night I'm bouncing off the walls.
I'm often close to tears, the smallest thing will set me off. This afternoon I burst into tears because I couldn't find my iPod charger.
And then I feel guilty a lot...I'm a generally lucky person, my family are great and so are my friends, I don't have anything to worry or be sad about, but I do anyway. I feel guilty because I feel like this when people worse off than me just get on with it.
I'm sorry to rant on but if I'm honest I'm at the end of my tether and don't know where to turn or what to do :(
I'm 19 and I'm studying at university.
I would say that up until a few months ago I was a confident, happy go lucky person.
I was always the first person on the dance floor and the first person to volunteer if anything needed doing.
But now it's different. I get nervous all the time. I'm constantly scared that people on the street are thinking bad things about me. I never volunteer answers in lectures or seminars incase people laugh at me. I hardly go out. I sit in my room on my own for hours. If I do go out I'm terrible company...I snap at people, I ignore them and basically treat them like rubbish.
I can't sleep at night, I'm restless and lay awake worrying about not being able to sleep. Then I find it so difficult to get up in the morning and can't concentrate during the day, but by 10 at night I'm bouncing off the walls.
I'm often close to tears, the smallest thing will set me off. This afternoon I burst into tears because I couldn't find my iPod charger.
And then I feel guilty a lot...I'm a generally lucky person, my family are great and so are my friends, I don't have anything to worry or be sad about, but I do anyway. I feel guilty because I feel like this when people worse off than me just get on with it.
I'm sorry to rant on but if I'm honest I'm at the end of my tether and don't know where to turn or what to do :(