phil06
18-02-09, 23:57
I know it's been spoken about alot on here that you have to let negative thoughts flow and they are just thoughts. I find it hard as they grip your mind.
Ok I won't act on the negative stuff but the fact I get these thoughts disturb me. When I block them out they don't get in but eventually I need to breathe and they come back. Why do they come back I just told them they are not me, are negative thoughts? They do they have a fear over me?
For two years I mean I have been fighting these negative thoughts they make me question my insanity and bubble wrap my mind into thinking they are real. It's just melted my confidence I fear going manic depressed, no longer being straight even though I am this HOCD stuff. I can reassure myself yes it's just anxiety and two hours later it's back with a vengeance.
Just how do you deal with them? I am sick to the bone of feeling uncomfortable in my own skin, paranoid people are looking at me and bubble wrapped in negative anxiety. I just fear even talking about it in case people think oh I am not straight, when I am. I feel unrelaxed round anybody of the same sex. OCD over clothes/music. I sometimes don't talk in fear of developing manic depression. The more intense and longer the thoughts last the more real they feel.
I just feel its melting me and destroying my life. Sometimes the thoughts seem to real I have become to accept that they are there but I don't because it's not me and I am fed up fighting. I refuse to accept the nature of the negative OCD thoughts. The whole anxiety gives me messed up way of thinking on life. I could be thinking of meeting a nice new woman and my anxiety crushes me and says what If I stop being straight..it's horrible. A massive doubt, negative thought..can't see clear. I take a shower to try and help anxiety and now that doesn't seem to help as I never find answers.
My head is wound up by this anxiety what can I do? what book, food will help? I feel nothing can. I've tried they still topple me and nobody can reassure me enough. My short term has been well I have had g.fs and I have been I am 20 and been straight all this time and had HOCD for 2 years and it's just been thoughts...I can get past today but what about tomorrow...next day?
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Ok I won't act on the negative stuff but the fact I get these thoughts disturb me. When I block them out they don't get in but eventually I need to breathe and they come back. Why do they come back I just told them they are not me, are negative thoughts? They do they have a fear over me?
For two years I mean I have been fighting these negative thoughts they make me question my insanity and bubble wrap my mind into thinking they are real. It's just melted my confidence I fear going manic depressed, no longer being straight even though I am this HOCD stuff. I can reassure myself yes it's just anxiety and two hours later it's back with a vengeance.
Just how do you deal with them? I am sick to the bone of feeling uncomfortable in my own skin, paranoid people are looking at me and bubble wrapped in negative anxiety. I just fear even talking about it in case people think oh I am not straight, when I am. I feel unrelaxed round anybody of the same sex. OCD over clothes/music. I sometimes don't talk in fear of developing manic depression. The more intense and longer the thoughts last the more real they feel.
I just feel its melting me and destroying my life. Sometimes the thoughts seem to real I have become to accept that they are there but I don't because it's not me and I am fed up fighting. I refuse to accept the nature of the negative OCD thoughts. The whole anxiety gives me messed up way of thinking on life. I could be thinking of meeting a nice new woman and my anxiety crushes me and says what If I stop being straight..it's horrible. A massive doubt, negative thought..can't see clear. I take a shower to try and help anxiety and now that doesn't seem to help as I never find answers.
My head is wound up by this anxiety what can I do? what book, food will help? I feel nothing can. I've tried they still topple me and nobody can reassure me enough. My short term has been well I have had g.fs and I have been I am 20 and been straight all this time and had HOCD for 2 years and it's just been thoughts...I can get past today but what about tomorrow...next day?
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