Dia
20-07-05, 00:40
This is my first post here, I'm so glad to have found an active forum, as my panic has come back with a vengence.
I spent all of my twenties in a constant state of anxiety, just knowing I was about to drop dead at any moment. I went in and out of agoraphobia, daily panic attacks, generalized anxiety and after a couple of years of "therapy", I have only a few attacks in the last two years.
As for the rest of my life, mom of two and getting ready to enter college this August....
My college is right next door to a MAJOR chemical plant. When I say right next door, I'm talking 300 yards---that's pretty close. I have become convinced that I am going to be a victim of a chemical leak while at school and that I am living my last days.
I am unable to sleep at night and now I'm crying all day. I can't stop thinking about this. I'm putting my belongings in order to make it easier to sort through them when I'm gone. I am consumed with the belief that I am going to die at school this fall.
So now, I'm afraid of going to school. Terrified, is more like it. So that's what's bothering me now. I no longer have my "out of the blue" panic attacks, but now I'm cursed with this "premonition" of my death while trying to better my education. I would like to know if anyone else has to deal with this sort of thing, or just KNOWN they would die while at a certain location.
Thanks for listening, I don't have insurance any more so this is as close to therapy as I can get.
Dia
I spent all of my twenties in a constant state of anxiety, just knowing I was about to drop dead at any moment. I went in and out of agoraphobia, daily panic attacks, generalized anxiety and after a couple of years of "therapy", I have only a few attacks in the last two years.
As for the rest of my life, mom of two and getting ready to enter college this August....
My college is right next door to a MAJOR chemical plant. When I say right next door, I'm talking 300 yards---that's pretty close. I have become convinced that I am going to be a victim of a chemical leak while at school and that I am living my last days.
I am unable to sleep at night and now I'm crying all day. I can't stop thinking about this. I'm putting my belongings in order to make it easier to sort through them when I'm gone. I am consumed with the belief that I am going to die at school this fall.
So now, I'm afraid of going to school. Terrified, is more like it. So that's what's bothering me now. I no longer have my "out of the blue" panic attacks, but now I'm cursed with this "premonition" of my death while trying to better my education. I would like to know if anyone else has to deal with this sort of thing, or just KNOWN they would die while at a certain location.
Thanks for listening, I don't have insurance any more so this is as close to therapy as I can get.
Dia