CJH86
20-02-09, 12:25
Sorry about the long waffle:)! Basically i suffer from anxiety + panic disorder and have come out of a really really bad patch, im now ok but still quite shaken up. Anyhow last week i had a echocardiogram and found out i had a hole in my heart, albeit a small and harmless one (thats as much as i know about it at the mo) this has raised my anxiety a little again but not excessivley:blush:.
Long story short my recent problems have put a massive strain on my relationship with my boyfriend and we have been through a very rocky patch but are on the mend now. My problem is that he is going away for 5 days today and in light of everything im feeling insecure/paranoid/worried/anxious etc etc etc
....im worried about my heart and dont want to be alone in the house so im stopping at my mums while he is away, which i havent told him because im worried he'll think im getting worse again! Also im anxious about him being away (coz i always miss him stupidly much) and finally im worried hes gonna do something bad like cheat...but blatently im not gonna tell him that either as i dont want to come of clingy/untrusting, its evident im somewhat paranoid and yes i tend to hide anything which i think makes me appear 'weak' which is a real problem for me:weep:
I Just wondered if anyone else gets this seperation type anxiety? and if anyones got some tips for how i can distract my mind? as i know all my thoughts will be consumed by the above and i just want to have a good weekend!
Long story short my recent problems have put a massive strain on my relationship with my boyfriend and we have been through a very rocky patch but are on the mend now. My problem is that he is going away for 5 days today and in light of everything im feeling insecure/paranoid/worried/anxious etc etc etc
....im worried about my heart and dont want to be alone in the house so im stopping at my mums while he is away, which i havent told him because im worried he'll think im getting worse again! Also im anxious about him being away (coz i always miss him stupidly much) and finally im worried hes gonna do something bad like cheat...but blatently im not gonna tell him that either as i dont want to come of clingy/untrusting, its evident im somewhat paranoid and yes i tend to hide anything which i think makes me appear 'weak' which is a real problem for me:weep:
I Just wondered if anyone else gets this seperation type anxiety? and if anyones got some tips for how i can distract my mind? as i know all my thoughts will be consumed by the above and i just want to have a good weekend!