allum123
02-03-09, 02:41
I am 15 years old and I had a concussion while playing hockey about a year ago. I didn't lose conciousness but it was my second concussion. After the accident I noticed I wasn't as good at sports and i felt uncoordinated. At the time I had no idea about post concussion syndrome and I blamed it on my body growing and not being used to my body because I have grew. I also started smoking weed more often, being bummed out about my athletic ability. Then mentally things started to change. I had problems concentrating, short term memory loss, anxiety,depression, my ears feel like theyre clogged, I'm really sensitive to noise, my vision is sensitive to lights and is a bit blurry, thoughts are disconnected, headaches, trouble sleeping, feeling tired all the time and the list goes on. My marks dropped from about an 80 average to 65. I thought I had permantly damaged by brain from smoking weed and i felt even more depressed and started having terrible anxiety and i also started to go a bit insane. I didn't tell ONE person what was going on and I kept all this bottled up. I couldnt communicate well or enjoy anyones company because of my depression, even my family or close friends. Then i could see my family and friends looking sort of depressed to like it rubbed off on them(which made me feel awful). I used to very out going, good looking and funny guy before all of this (it also made it hard to flirt with girls which crushed my confidence). Now it's a year later and I still suffer from these symptons but I stopped smoking weed thinking it was the cause of all this but my symptons didnt go away (although it did help some what) and just the other day I was reading up on concussions on wikipedia and read about post concussion syndrome. My symptons were exactly the same and I read that physically it kicks in first and mentally after then eventually you'll get out of it physically, then mentally it will last longer but should stop no longer then a year. I also readthat not being educated about post concussion syndrome and thinking your brain is permantly damaged causes anxiety and makes symptons alot worse. Reading that was a relief and Im starting to get better physically and im getting coordinated again. I still suffer the mental symptons and I hope they go away because i also read some people have them for life. I pray that's not me.
Thank you for reading it feels good to get all of that off my chest. (p.s i still havent told my parents about my condition they just think smoking weed has killed my grades, and recently my brother who is 19 has gone depressed.)
Thank you for reading it feels good to get all of that off my chest. (p.s i still havent told my parents about my condition they just think smoking weed has killed my grades, and recently my brother who is 19 has gone depressed.)