PURE WASTEFULLNESS

[Piscian Daydreamer]

I know that this is totally linked to my anxiety, but a feeling of pure wastefullness has taken over my life.

Until i start uni again in October, i'm off for another 10 weeks doing pretty much nothing. Well, actually that isn't true! I am going out every single day, whether it be working on a film with my friends, playing football, at the gym or down the pub. However, its still not enough and i feel awful and anxious.

My life is alright, good socially, but my anxiety is making me feel like i am doing f**k all with my life.
I did try to get a job - for like 3 weeks thats all i did, went round agencies, but i left it too late and ive had no luck - their are NO PART TIME JOBS LEFT IN BIRMINGHAM.
To be honest, i'm not bothered, i don't really wanna work and i have enough money to last me the whole summer.
But because i am off uni i feel like i am totally wasting my life - like im just getting by, counting down the days til i go back to uni.

Pure wastefullness and nothingness. But what else is there to do apart from..... chill............. I wish i could just chill and not feel anxious, worried, wasteful, emotional everyday..... i want some peace.

Anyone else ever feel like this?

[seh1980]

I know that feeling all too well. I always have to be doing something 'constructive' or else my anxiety takes over..Why don't you set yourself a few things to do over the summer? There must be a couple of things that you've been putting off for a while. Or (this may sound very sad)..you could always read a few books for your uni courses next year..:D

"Life is too important to take seriously" Corky Siegal

[Piscian Daydreamer]

HAHAHA, i absolutely hate reading - that will make me more anxious and feel even more wasteful SEH.

I just honestly do not know what its like to not feel anxious. My life is normal but seems ultra empty.

[seh1980]

Well, what do you like doing then? Think about it and then come up with some 'projects' for yourself that revolve around these things..:D

"Life is too important to take seriously" Corky Siegal

[Piscian Daydreamer]

What do i like?

All the things i like doing, i guess i actually do on a regular basis, e.g. play football, work out, go to the pub.

Thats the ironic thing, i'm doing what i like doing but IM STILL SO anxious - there is no cure. I am so so wrestless and can never be ultimately content with life.....

[seh1980]

What do you do to help with your anxiety? counselling? relaxation CDs? essential oils? rescue remedy? :D

"Life is too important to take seriously" Corky Siegal

[Piscian Daydreamer]

I just get through each day feeling anxious.

I got to go now Seh, back later. Thanks for listening.

[seh1980]

Then why don't you spend the summer working on your anxiety? That way you will be busy in the short-term and you'll benefit in the long-term..Try different relaxation techniques, exercises, foods, vitamins, etc :D

"Life is too important to take seriously" Corky Siegal

[nomorepanic]

I think you should use the time to improve your health as well.

You have loads of free time to read up on the anxiety, get massages, face all your fears etc etc

What about voluntary work? Could be worth looking into as well.

Nicola

"Nearly all happiness comes into our lives through doors we don't even remember leaving open"

[kid a]

I had exactly the same feeling between the 2nd year and 3rd year of uni and also with me, had little to do with being inactive. I was busy everyday, I remember being in the pub with mates, with plans for the next day, and thinking "is this it?"

On reflection, for me, it was responsibility I was craving. I was busy all the time but felt incredibly empty, like I had nothing pushing me. It was almost like I had nothing to worry about which made me anxious, if that makes sense.

Playing football, working out, going to the pub...i suppose none of those things have a tangible result at the end and that's what was bugging me. They're great things to do, but I think that when you've been at uni and used to achieving things that amount to an end result, you maybe begin to miss that..It makes you feel as if you're moving forward.

[alexis]

Hi Maybe if you spent the summer learning and researching about your anxiety it would help, Ive certainly got better since Ive learnt about and accepted it, Love Alexis,xx

[Meg]

Hi ,

You could look round and get involved in several activities that would benefit you and others.

Its amazing how much better inside you feel if you've helped someone else instead of constantly being introspective


Volunteering ... (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=3767)


Meg
www.anxietymanagementltd.com

Your anxiety is the human representation of the pictures that you paint using your many vivid colours of revolving and reoccurring thoughts.
How big is your gallery ?

[kate]

I'm in Brum as well and my son, who is starting 6th form in September, has got an application form for Somerfield supermarket, so there must be SOME jobs available in these parts!

I have also broken up for 6 weeks hols and spend my time doing absolutely nothing. Yesterday was the first day of my hols and I decided to have a chilled day at home. This resulted in me having the headache from hell and I was in bed at 10pm!

I moan about having to go to work but in fact routine seems to be the one thing that keeps me going.

Definately check out voluntary work as Nic suggests if you are unable to find any paid work. Will give you some routine to work to and some reason to get out of bed in the morning!

Kate x

[pauline]

Hi

I too live in Birmingham. I work at a local school and i now have 6 weeks off from the kitchen job and 4 weeks off from the cleaning as we have to do 2 weeks Big clean. I too am feeling mixed up as have been looking forward to the holidays, now its here i'm "thinking what the heck am i going to do all day" My children are all grown up and work and so will be here on my own. Here i am with all this extra time on my hands and i could go look around the shop's but because of having anxiety (it's far worse when going away from the house) i can not enjoy doing any of these things. I get so down about my life and wish so much that i did not have this anxiety. I did say to my daughter the other day if she would help me this holiday as i really need to start to try and go further away from the home. So my goal is to get on a train which i have not done in year's. The thing is though i need someone to come with me to do these things and my daughter is working in the week, but she has said she will come with me on Saturday's. Another thing i'm going to try and do is looking at things from a different point of view to be more positve. I went to the doctors the other day and saw a doctor i had not seen for 3 years, she asked me how i was and sat and talked to me for some time. She said i must not keep on putting myself down that she thought i had achived so much as i am working and at least trying to have some kind life and this was the first time she had seen me in 3 years. Take care

Pauline

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