StephdeMeth
04-03-09, 16:35
Ok, so I don't really know what to do, and none of my housemates can help me, so I thought I'd put this question to you lovely people.
Tomorrow evening is my University Christian Union. I love it, and I normally get a real buzz out of it. I also feel its an important group in furthering my relationship with God.
However, the last 3 times I have been I have had a panic attack. I have had to get out the room very quickly, the first two lasted over an hour with the later one lasting less time. The first two times an ambulance was called, and the only reason I didn't get taken to hospital was because I refused to go.
I don't know whether to go or not! I'm really scared of going in case it happens again, but I'm determined not to let my condition affect my life in general. I'm very worried of becoming agoraphobic and so I'm trying to lead a normal life, or at least, as normal as possible.
If i don't go, I may never pull myself together enough to go back. And this would affect me extremely. However, if I do go, and it happens again, not only will I affect my friends who follow me out (most of whom are told to go away fairly quickly), but I'm not entirely sure I could face anyone from CU without being reminded.
My one friend in particular is worrying me - he told me the other day that he thought I was becoming dependent on him. What he doesn't seem to understand is that yes, him being there helps me a lot at time of panic (he's the only person I've ever been able to trust when having an attack), but I've been doing this on my own a lot longer than I've known him, and I've always coped. If I go tomorrow and have an attack, he may feel that it's proved his point.
So, what do you think people, do I go and risk an attack, or do I not go and continue to let my condition affect my everyday life?
Thank you in advance.
Tomorrow evening is my University Christian Union. I love it, and I normally get a real buzz out of it. I also feel its an important group in furthering my relationship with God.
However, the last 3 times I have been I have had a panic attack. I have had to get out the room very quickly, the first two lasted over an hour with the later one lasting less time. The first two times an ambulance was called, and the only reason I didn't get taken to hospital was because I refused to go.
I don't know whether to go or not! I'm really scared of going in case it happens again, but I'm determined not to let my condition affect my life in general. I'm very worried of becoming agoraphobic and so I'm trying to lead a normal life, or at least, as normal as possible.
If i don't go, I may never pull myself together enough to go back. And this would affect me extremely. However, if I do go, and it happens again, not only will I affect my friends who follow me out (most of whom are told to go away fairly quickly), but I'm not entirely sure I could face anyone from CU without being reminded.
My one friend in particular is worrying me - he told me the other day that he thought I was becoming dependent on him. What he doesn't seem to understand is that yes, him being there helps me a lot at time of panic (he's the only person I've ever been able to trust when having an attack), but I've been doing this on my own a lot longer than I've known him, and I've always coped. If I go tomorrow and have an attack, he may feel that it's proved his point.
So, what do you think people, do I go and risk an attack, or do I not go and continue to let my condition affect my everyday life?
Thank you in advance.