New here... Are these panic attacks?

[olly&jack]

Hello,

I don't really know where to start, I ve always been an anxious person I guess, However after the birth of my second baby 6 months ago, I had a rare pregnancy condition called eclampsia, and I woke up in resuscitation in local a and e after having had three non epileptic seizures, they were due to my high blood pressure rocketing etc.

However because I found all of this quite traumatic I have been very anxious and it mainly lies around being on my own, as soon as my husband goes to work I am on edge all day and feel dizzy and faint all day too.

but about three or four times now I have been in a resting state ie, not rushing around, just watching telly, in the car or asleep and all of sudden I get this huge rush of something, but I can't put my finger on it, and I have really rapid heart rate and feel comletely out of my depth and can't concentrate and I think really horrid things about dying and who would look after my two children until someone finds me, I don't get tingles or anything whilst in this state, its just a huge rush of energy out of nowhere and I have rung for an ambulance before as thought I was going to pass out and die! Do these sound like panic attacks? they literally come out of the blue like a thunderbolt, and have to run out into my garden, my neighbours must think im mad! I just need to be out in the open so If I do die, someone will find me and make sure my children are ok.. i know this sounds so silly! does anyone else have this and look after small children?

Also I experience heavy arms and pains in my arms as well as scalp tingling are these anxeity syptoms? Does anyone else have a fear of being on their own at home? My poor husband he probably hates the phonecalls asking him to come hope because I can't cope!

Thanks for any advice you have
Kelly

[tanya 1]

hi kelly,im 25 and i too sometimes feel like what you have described,when my daughter was first born i used to sob my heart out to my boyfriend not to go to work because i hated being on my own,but with time i have learnt how to stay in the house on my own even when my boyfriend does 12 hour shifts at night and is an hour away,it just takes time,but now and again when im feeling down i say to my boyfriend "would you come home if i really needed you ?" and he says yes of course i will,so just by knowing that i feel like he would be there if needed,but to be honest i havent called him to come home since my daughter was really poorley when she was one,shes nearly four now,but we all have anxietys about something on here,mine at the moment is taking my daughter to school on my own and picking her up on my own i get so worked up and panicky.
hope this helps to let you know that your not on your own hun
tanya 1 x

[i hate panicking]

Hiya olly&jack,


I started getting panic attacks when I had my daughter as she was born by emergency caesarean as I had a placental abruption basically I nearly bled to death and of course lose my daugter which did'nt happen thankfully then i had to have a blood tranfusion as i lost too much blood so it was quite tramatic time, i was at my dads at the time when it happened which i am so glad i was!!!
Anyway after about 6 months I had my panic attacks under control as they were quite bad,then eventually found out i was pregnant with my son and went to a specialist because of my previous pregnancy and they assured me that a placental abruption was such a rare thing that it would'nt happen again so the pregancy was going fine anyway,i was about 9 days overdue and basically went into hosp to be induced and the contractions were few and far between so they left me like that for 24 hours which i was a bit concerned about,then they came in the room and just said "you need an emergency c section now".:scared15:

Went into theatre then they found that i had another placental abruption but this time it was an internal abruption so basically i was bleeding internally which of course the whole time my son was inside me swallowing the blood so he was really ill and had to be taken to special care unit!!
I can't tell you what a nervous wreck i was,i just could'nt believe it had happened again i had just had an operation and could'nt move but was desperate to see my son:weep:.

Take care x

[olly&jack]

Thanks your posts are so helpful, I find it hard to talk to my other 'mum friends' as their pregnancies were so normal, I think I find the near death experience all to much to deal with. My panics are so severe they have even considered that I may have a type of epilepsy which is called simple partial epilepsy where you don't have grand mal seizures just experience a whole host of different sensations, but after numerous tests they think it is more likely to be anxiety and panic, I think this is what is fueling the fire as I now sit at home second guessing the panic attacks thinking what if I do have epilepsy etc etc and that ill die!, thats why I needed reasurance that all these symptoms and things are what others share too?

My husband is wonderful and comes home in a flash but I think I am becoming to dependant on him and seem to have lost my independance somehow. Which I need back as he travels abroad and needs to get back to it so to speak.

Kelly

[i hate panicking]

Honestly they sound like panic attacks to me,I know exactly what you mean by needing someone there when your having one because your thinking,what if something happens to me and the children are on their own...but in fact mostly it's your brain working overtime:).


Pm me if you need to talk anytime:D

Take care x

[olly&jack]

Thanks so much, i wish I had found this site months ago, and going on here in the day, might be the tonic I need
Kelly x

[i hate panicking]

This is a brilliant site,there's so many supportive people on here!!!:D