adrenaline
05-03-09, 18:23
I think i have genaralised anxiety disorder. I can cope with most things when i'm better but when i'm iller i sprial down quick. When I have a serious problem i cant escape i dwell on it and makes me feel sick and anticpate all the time. I hav ehad a neighbour dispute for ages. Gone know where just got out of hand i reall need to learn things to help can occupation heath people help as that all help i'm getting.
It awfull he just ignores council and his noise nuisance. Whenever i hear him no wit set my heart racing and feel a personal attack on my enviroment. I wasnt that noise sensitive or ill when i first moved there. Since my heath hets worse it bring back my anxiety disorder a si feel very ill, get heartburn and my body get attack from adreanline. I need to get well enough to sort the m.e out but cant until i've moved which will take ages.
Its all a big mess, all i tried to do was do things by the book by coucil enviromental heath about his banging and laminat efloor nuisnace as i cant relax and renches you from your thoughts.
Its not just noise no wthough it got out of hand as im stubborn and cant ignore my principle and be walked over. I used to be ok as forced through it but since ive got m.e i cant, as any exitement stress anxiety or competition sets of that natural adreanline respence and over time it incapasitates me.
He is fed up of complaints he ha slied about an asult and counte rnoise allegation and trying to make me feel guilty. I know neighbour conflicts can be worsed thing for anxiety as cannot escape it, it like awar that never goes away. He is young 28 i'm a 23 year old guy im not a compliner really but he makes out im being over the top then if i do thing he is complaining now as id had enough nothing has worked mainly as he owns his. He isnt the sharpest tool in th ebox and is know to be abit strange, used to do lots of drugs etc and other stuff, i.e a hit and run.
He isnt particuly hostile though or violent so i purshed it as i was confident but now 14 months later im a nervous wreck so hard to ignor ethe noise an dnot dwell on it and get on with what i want to do i just cant concentrate.
sorry it all waflle di get impared now cognitivly and could of gon eon all day but i'm very tired.
Dunno why i'm even posting this just feel trapped, i hate conflict and cant understand why this idiot is carring thsi conflict on but i kno we are all so different and all see things differently so isnt my fault i have amoron neighbour when rest are nice and get on with and i have m.e plus anxiety on top, i'm sure once i'm settled il feel well again it wont sort my issues out about anxiety but il get well enough to think straight again and have energy as living in a conflict an dlimbo is so depressing.
I dont know ho wto stop my adreanline and try to forget whats going on and ignore his noise. It is getting obsessive now and caus emy m.e is making me weak and cant eat properly. I have gone from doing a lot mor eto not much plus i'm starting to feel bitter now. It so hard to fingd the right place to move to and am worried how ill i will get if only i could shut of my adrenaline, I know even well people feel symptoms of dread and sickness from neighbour wars but it consumes me now.
Cnat study see friends properly, do thing i wa sdoing basicly i think is thi sworth it but cant stop it all now, and a sit him in th ewrong i cant give in, im just hoping i can move soon. I'm jinxed having m.e got it after a virus ages ago, anxiety just use dto pass and didnt affect me mentaly and physicly.
Gone on a bit but feel well desperate again i want friends and a girlfriedn but i get so self concious now as il soo unwell from m,e where as in my last place i was so much better i got on with neighbours an dalough noisy was quiet up till 5pm and was a poor convertion building so had a life.
Il never get into a neighbour row again my heath cant take it i want to focus on lif enow noise and neighbours tit for tat.
It awfull he just ignores council and his noise nuisance. Whenever i hear him no wit set my heart racing and feel a personal attack on my enviroment. I wasnt that noise sensitive or ill when i first moved there. Since my heath hets worse it bring back my anxiety disorder a si feel very ill, get heartburn and my body get attack from adreanline. I need to get well enough to sort the m.e out but cant until i've moved which will take ages.
Its all a big mess, all i tried to do was do things by the book by coucil enviromental heath about his banging and laminat efloor nuisnace as i cant relax and renches you from your thoughts.
Its not just noise no wthough it got out of hand as im stubborn and cant ignore my principle and be walked over. I used to be ok as forced through it but since ive got m.e i cant, as any exitement stress anxiety or competition sets of that natural adreanline respence and over time it incapasitates me.
He is fed up of complaints he ha slied about an asult and counte rnoise allegation and trying to make me feel guilty. I know neighbour conflicts can be worsed thing for anxiety as cannot escape it, it like awar that never goes away. He is young 28 i'm a 23 year old guy im not a compliner really but he makes out im being over the top then if i do thing he is complaining now as id had enough nothing has worked mainly as he owns his. He isnt the sharpest tool in th ebox and is know to be abit strange, used to do lots of drugs etc and other stuff, i.e a hit and run.
He isnt particuly hostile though or violent so i purshed it as i was confident but now 14 months later im a nervous wreck so hard to ignor ethe noise an dnot dwell on it and get on with what i want to do i just cant concentrate.
sorry it all waflle di get impared now cognitivly and could of gon eon all day but i'm very tired.
Dunno why i'm even posting this just feel trapped, i hate conflict and cant understand why this idiot is carring thsi conflict on but i kno we are all so different and all see things differently so isnt my fault i have amoron neighbour when rest are nice and get on with and i have m.e plus anxiety on top, i'm sure once i'm settled il feel well again it wont sort my issues out about anxiety but il get well enough to think straight again and have energy as living in a conflict an dlimbo is so depressing.
I dont know ho wto stop my adreanline and try to forget whats going on and ignore his noise. It is getting obsessive now and caus emy m.e is making me weak and cant eat properly. I have gone from doing a lot mor eto not much plus i'm starting to feel bitter now. It so hard to fingd the right place to move to and am worried how ill i will get if only i could shut of my adrenaline, I know even well people feel symptoms of dread and sickness from neighbour wars but it consumes me now.
Cnat study see friends properly, do thing i wa sdoing basicly i think is thi sworth it but cant stop it all now, and a sit him in th ewrong i cant give in, im just hoping i can move soon. I'm jinxed having m.e got it after a virus ages ago, anxiety just use dto pass and didnt affect me mentaly and physicly.
Gone on a bit but feel well desperate again i want friends and a girlfriedn but i get so self concious now as il soo unwell from m,e where as in my last place i was so much better i got on with neighbours an dalough noisy was quiet up till 5pm and was a poor convertion building so had a life.
Il never get into a neighbour row again my heath cant take it i want to focus on lif enow noise and neighbours tit for tat.