darkphantom
27-07-05, 12:49
I had great weekend, but now i think im not ment to be happy cause when i am something comes along to knock me down again,
i been bad girl again and took a few diazpan tablets from my secret tab box, i feel real dopey now and could do anything.
we had some worry news in the post today to do with money so looks like this is starting up again . it always the same bad bad bad all the time.
i still not eating great and this is now causing few probs especially with diabeties, but cause im down it real hard to make the call to the doc.
And now it just over a week til the 10th and dad annerversary, i really dont want this day to come, steve is not understanding and even when dad died he was not there for me, so this year i will have noone round me, i dont want this day to come perhaps theres something i can do to go into a coma, i should of said goodbye to him and i didnt what sort of daughter am i not to say bye to my dad, this is why all this bad happening and my family left me it must be. i sitting here now with his picture and pic of his memorial plaque why couldnt it of been me and not dad, everyone loved him he did lot for charity and run childrens charity, what have i done nothing just hurt people wish i could turn the clock back. i wish he was with me know . feel sleepy now hope i sleep for weeks.
sorry for this either this or hit wall
love you all
take care
susie
i been bad girl again and took a few diazpan tablets from my secret tab box, i feel real dopey now and could do anything.
we had some worry news in the post today to do with money so looks like this is starting up again . it always the same bad bad bad all the time.
i still not eating great and this is now causing few probs especially with diabeties, but cause im down it real hard to make the call to the doc.
And now it just over a week til the 10th and dad annerversary, i really dont want this day to come, steve is not understanding and even when dad died he was not there for me, so this year i will have noone round me, i dont want this day to come perhaps theres something i can do to go into a coma, i should of said goodbye to him and i didnt what sort of daughter am i not to say bye to my dad, this is why all this bad happening and my family left me it must be. i sitting here now with his picture and pic of his memorial plaque why couldnt it of been me and not dad, everyone loved him he did lot for charity and run childrens charity, what have i done nothing just hurt people wish i could turn the clock back. i wish he was with me know . feel sleepy now hope i sleep for weeks.
sorry for this either this or hit wall
love you all
take care
susie