nikkinik
09-03-09, 12:05
Hi,
Ive not posted here for a while.. Im not sure why, I guess I went back to burying my head in the sand perhaps!
Ive suffered with anxiety, agoraphobia and panic attacks for over 5 years now.. now Im just anxious all the time pretty much.
Anyway, since my ectopic pregnancy last year (Feb '08) Ive had health anxiety too(!).. and basically my anxiety in general has gone to a higher level.
Whenever I used to have a panic attack it would take the morning or afternoon to recover and Id feel worn out, but now it takes me 2 or 3 days to recover - meaning I hardly go anywhere, which makes the agoraphobia a bit worse if I dont go out, or if I push through it and go out regardless of feeling totally awful, I panic/worry I'll faint/drop down in the street/I get dizzy because I feel so run down etc.. thus making me feel even worse!!:weep: I had 2 small panic attacks this week and spent most of the weekend in bed:weep:
I just feel like cr*p.
Im shattered/exhausted/drained on a daily basis pretty much, and after a panic attack Im draging myself around, litterally.
I feel sick a lot.
Have stomach pains alot.
I now ache alot into the bargain.. my joints now creek and crack when I bend, and somedays Im that stiff I find it hard to just bend down.. and those arent even the half of it.
I just dont know how Im supposed to get better when I feel so awful.. and surely no one else feels as bad as me health wise.
So what are you meant to do, try and rest so your body can recover (thats what it seems to say in most of my books), or just force yourself through it no matter what?:huh:
Im just scared that if I feel this ill now whats next if I do start forcing myself out when Im not well to start with.. will I be bed ridden in 6 months, end up in hospital from exhaustion, it feels like I will as I didnt feel nearly as bad before (say 4 years ago) as I do now,
I just want my life back, a social life, a job.. anything!
Ive not posted here for a while.. Im not sure why, I guess I went back to burying my head in the sand perhaps!
Ive suffered with anxiety, agoraphobia and panic attacks for over 5 years now.. now Im just anxious all the time pretty much.
Anyway, since my ectopic pregnancy last year (Feb '08) Ive had health anxiety too(!).. and basically my anxiety in general has gone to a higher level.
Whenever I used to have a panic attack it would take the morning or afternoon to recover and Id feel worn out, but now it takes me 2 or 3 days to recover - meaning I hardly go anywhere, which makes the agoraphobia a bit worse if I dont go out, or if I push through it and go out regardless of feeling totally awful, I panic/worry I'll faint/drop down in the street/I get dizzy because I feel so run down etc.. thus making me feel even worse!!:weep: I had 2 small panic attacks this week and spent most of the weekend in bed:weep:
I just feel like cr*p.
Im shattered/exhausted/drained on a daily basis pretty much, and after a panic attack Im draging myself around, litterally.
I feel sick a lot.
Have stomach pains alot.
I now ache alot into the bargain.. my joints now creek and crack when I bend, and somedays Im that stiff I find it hard to just bend down.. and those arent even the half of it.
I just dont know how Im supposed to get better when I feel so awful.. and surely no one else feels as bad as me health wise.
So what are you meant to do, try and rest so your body can recover (thats what it seems to say in most of my books), or just force yourself through it no matter what?:huh:
Im just scared that if I feel this ill now whats next if I do start forcing myself out when Im not well to start with.. will I be bed ridden in 6 months, end up in hospital from exhaustion, it feels like I will as I didnt feel nearly as bad before (say 4 years ago) as I do now,
I just want my life back, a social life, a job.. anything!