Shelly80
09-03-09, 18:40
So my biggest health fear at the moment is a fear of my heart. I suffered a really bad heart palpitation/flutter/flip flop (thought I was going to die) a month ago and have been obesessed ever since.
I've had the heart flip flops before, but for some reason the one a month ago felt different and terrified me. I went to the doctor, the whole way I thought I was going to die. My doctors beg to differ and say my heart is healthy and I had a PAC, now I just can't get past the nagging feeling that my heart will just stop beating. Sudden Cardiac Death. I have heart palpitations often now, I seem to have convnced myself that the incindent a month ago, damaged my heart and that is why I am having so many strange heart palpitations and PAC's or PVC's or whatever.
I suffered from a horrible panic breakdown last summer that resulted in my waking up every morning at 5AM in a full blown panic attack, adrenaline rushes through my body, heart racing. I lost 25 pounds because I had no appetite. That all was started because of a slowly building fear of a different health ailment. I started on meds though and found my way out of that hole that lasted 4 months. Now I feel myself sliding back again. I'm obsessed with my heart beat.
Just needed to vent out my story. Not many people understand what our brains do to us. There isn't really any logic for us, just this fact that we are so sure something horrible is happening to us.
I've had the heart flip flops before, but for some reason the one a month ago felt different and terrified me. I went to the doctor, the whole way I thought I was going to die. My doctors beg to differ and say my heart is healthy and I had a PAC, now I just can't get past the nagging feeling that my heart will just stop beating. Sudden Cardiac Death. I have heart palpitations often now, I seem to have convnced myself that the incindent a month ago, damaged my heart and that is why I am having so many strange heart palpitations and PAC's or PVC's or whatever.
I suffered from a horrible panic breakdown last summer that resulted in my waking up every morning at 5AM in a full blown panic attack, adrenaline rushes through my body, heart racing. I lost 25 pounds because I had no appetite. That all was started because of a slowly building fear of a different health ailment. I started on meds though and found my way out of that hole that lasted 4 months. Now I feel myself sliding back again. I'm obsessed with my heart beat.
Just needed to vent out my story. Not many people understand what our brains do to us. There isn't really any logic for us, just this fact that we are so sure something horrible is happening to us.