sMINT
13-03-09, 11:04
Ive always been ruled by panic but never has it stopped me doing something.
Ive been to London many times whilst suffering and got through it even though it was hell. Ive been to night clubs. Ive been to friends parties. Not once have I let panic get the better of me.
Today though I was meant to go away for 4 days to a music festival but couldn't face it. I let panic win.
I honestly cant believe Im sat here in the house. I feel like such a let down. You often hear teenages complaining they hate their lives. Well I REALLY REALLY HATE mine. Panic is RUINING it. Im 18. I should be out with friends enjoying myself.
I just couldnt face this trip as my panic attacks (I dunno if anyone feels the same as me when they get them) last not for only a few minutes but from the time I leave my hosue to the time I am back home. When I went to London previously I had an attack on the train up from 10am all the way through the day, couldnt eat at night, hardly slept, carrie don till the morning. Got REALLY bad on the train home the next day. And it only subsided when I was back in my house over 24 hours later.
Ive wasted in total £155 on this weekend break. Im going to the doctors Tuesday anyway so I really really hope he can do something for me as Im about to loose all faith in ever getting better. I mean I have tried every single form of technique in trying to deal with and overcome panic attacks. My only option left is to try and get on a CBT course, Hypnotheropy or give in to my avoidence of medication :weep:
Ive been to London many times whilst suffering and got through it even though it was hell. Ive been to night clubs. Ive been to friends parties. Not once have I let panic get the better of me.
Today though I was meant to go away for 4 days to a music festival but couldn't face it. I let panic win.
I honestly cant believe Im sat here in the house. I feel like such a let down. You often hear teenages complaining they hate their lives. Well I REALLY REALLY HATE mine. Panic is RUINING it. Im 18. I should be out with friends enjoying myself.
I just couldnt face this trip as my panic attacks (I dunno if anyone feels the same as me when they get them) last not for only a few minutes but from the time I leave my hosue to the time I am back home. When I went to London previously I had an attack on the train up from 10am all the way through the day, couldnt eat at night, hardly slept, carrie don till the morning. Got REALLY bad on the train home the next day. And it only subsided when I was back in my house over 24 hours later.
Ive wasted in total £155 on this weekend break. Im going to the doctors Tuesday anyway so I really really hope he can do something for me as Im about to loose all faith in ever getting better. I mean I have tried every single form of technique in trying to deal with and overcome panic attacks. My only option left is to try and get on a CBT course, Hypnotheropy or give in to my avoidence of medication :weep: