penneyf
16-03-09, 16:42
Hi I am new here so bear with me if I get it wrong.
I have suffered from depression for years. I think maybe I have always been like it but didnt recognise it or put a name to it. I suffered badly after having my children but again didnt really acknowledge it because of circumstances and I finally fell apart after my divorce. Over the last 15 years + I have had several bad period of depression and have taken medication and had councelling and have come through. My story is a long one - like most of us I suspect - so this is the brief version. I have been on anti-depressants for the current spell since September 08 but over the last month or so I began to feel different. I developed a twitch under one eye and on several occasions had what I presume was an anxiety attack (do such things exist?) I was in the car and my heart started to race and pound, my stomach was turning over (butterflies) and I was sweating then cold. I physically shook from head to toe and had trouble controlling the car. All I could think of doing was deep breathing and talking to myself about any old rubbish and eventually it passed off. Since then I just feel anxious all the time. It is like the feeling you get when you are facing a test, interview, exam that kind of thing but it is all the time. Anyway 3 weeks ago my boss, who is a bully, decided to have a go at me (undeserved) and I just went to pieces and was off work for 2 weeks. I went to my GP who changed my tablets (fluoxetine) for Mirtazapine (15mg). I had to go back after 2 weeks (Thursday) and my dose has now been increased to 30mg. I dont feel any different yet but I expect it takes time in the same way as I know you have to wait a while when you start antidepressants. I have some questions though. Am I depressed or am I anxious or is it both? and why hasnt anxiety been an issue for me in the past? Will these tablets start to work soon? I read that they cause weight gain and today I cant do my belt up. Would this happen so soon? I cant afford to put on weight as I have self esteem/image issues and this just makes me feel worse. I am so groggy in the mornings and feel sleepy all day, I cant work properly like this and I dont want to get into trouble but I can hardly move let alone concentrate.
I would appreciate advice and help if you have any.
Fliss
I have suffered from depression for years. I think maybe I have always been like it but didnt recognise it or put a name to it. I suffered badly after having my children but again didnt really acknowledge it because of circumstances and I finally fell apart after my divorce. Over the last 15 years + I have had several bad period of depression and have taken medication and had councelling and have come through. My story is a long one - like most of us I suspect - so this is the brief version. I have been on anti-depressants for the current spell since September 08 but over the last month or so I began to feel different. I developed a twitch under one eye and on several occasions had what I presume was an anxiety attack (do such things exist?) I was in the car and my heart started to race and pound, my stomach was turning over (butterflies) and I was sweating then cold. I physically shook from head to toe and had trouble controlling the car. All I could think of doing was deep breathing and talking to myself about any old rubbish and eventually it passed off. Since then I just feel anxious all the time. It is like the feeling you get when you are facing a test, interview, exam that kind of thing but it is all the time. Anyway 3 weeks ago my boss, who is a bully, decided to have a go at me (undeserved) and I just went to pieces and was off work for 2 weeks. I went to my GP who changed my tablets (fluoxetine) for Mirtazapine (15mg). I had to go back after 2 weeks (Thursday) and my dose has now been increased to 30mg. I dont feel any different yet but I expect it takes time in the same way as I know you have to wait a while when you start antidepressants. I have some questions though. Am I depressed or am I anxious or is it both? and why hasnt anxiety been an issue for me in the past? Will these tablets start to work soon? I read that they cause weight gain and today I cant do my belt up. Would this happen so soon? I cant afford to put on weight as I have self esteem/image issues and this just makes me feel worse. I am so groggy in the mornings and feel sleepy all day, I cant work properly like this and I dont want to get into trouble but I can hardly move let alone concentrate.
I would appreciate advice and help if you have any.
Fliss