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19-03-09, 15:52
Okay, so I'm a little nervous about writing about myself and am shaking as I try and write something that is not completely stupid and ranty...
I'm a female in my early 20s and started to have panic attacks when I was still at school and usually in social situations when I felt that I couldn't talk because I didn't have anything interesting to say, and then this feeling got progressively worse until I was completely convinced that everyone all the time would be able to see through into me and realise that I was a fraud of some kind and not worth the effort of anything and then had to run out of the room and away from the situation.
During my final year at university, with the added stress of end of year exams and my dissertation project I spent 3 months locked in my room, only coming out at night and being really scared of everything and everyone, not being able to sleep or see the good in anything and being upset and figetty all the time. At this point I decided I should do something about everything and went to the Doctors where I was "prescribed" a book to read, "Overcoming Panic" which I have been working through ever since. I've also been recommended CBT although this scares me and so far I have been unable to think about this seriously without just feeling shaky about it all and wanting to just hide away and bury everything with myself under the covers of my duvet.
I know this post is just a rant but I have no other way of introducing myself successfully, whatever I write I'll wish that I put the opposite so thought I'd just go for it and type away, sorry for you all having to read it!
thanks to this site for the courage it's given me to be able to even think about writing about myself on here and getting the help needed.
Em
I'm a female in my early 20s and started to have panic attacks when I was still at school and usually in social situations when I felt that I couldn't talk because I didn't have anything interesting to say, and then this feeling got progressively worse until I was completely convinced that everyone all the time would be able to see through into me and realise that I was a fraud of some kind and not worth the effort of anything and then had to run out of the room and away from the situation.
During my final year at university, with the added stress of end of year exams and my dissertation project I spent 3 months locked in my room, only coming out at night and being really scared of everything and everyone, not being able to sleep or see the good in anything and being upset and figetty all the time. At this point I decided I should do something about everything and went to the Doctors where I was "prescribed" a book to read, "Overcoming Panic" which I have been working through ever since. I've also been recommended CBT although this scares me and so far I have been unable to think about this seriously without just feeling shaky about it all and wanting to just hide away and bury everything with myself under the covers of my duvet.
I know this post is just a rant but I have no other way of introducing myself successfully, whatever I write I'll wish that I put the opposite so thought I'd just go for it and type away, sorry for you all having to read it!
thanks to this site for the courage it's given me to be able to even think about writing about myself on here and getting the help needed.
Em