judipat
20-03-09, 19:38
Hi
Hav'nt posted in a long time, however, I feel I'm back to square one again!
I went down with this awful tummy bug on Tuesday which has swept through the family like wild fire. Uncontrollable D & V - yuk! not nice at all. Its left me feeling very weak and my tummy still feels delicate. My anxiety was pretty bad prior to the bug, but I was just about keeping it under control - now, it just shot through the roof again.
Why, Why, Why??? am I like this? Why am I so scared of all the bodily sensations I get. When I have my logical head on, I know its my anxiety - I've suffered with this for years on and off - read every book there is to read on the subject and still I let it get me! I get so angry with myself and yet there are times when I feel so tired of fighting it, I just get dragged down again.
My main issue at the moment is my smoking and I beat myself up about it every day. I've tried several times to kick the habit, but when I'm scared, I reach for a fag (stupid, I know). Oh God!!!
Sorry for the ramble, just had to get it all out - I'm feeling really panicky at the moment.
Judi
Hav'nt posted in a long time, however, I feel I'm back to square one again!
I went down with this awful tummy bug on Tuesday which has swept through the family like wild fire. Uncontrollable D & V - yuk! not nice at all. Its left me feeling very weak and my tummy still feels delicate. My anxiety was pretty bad prior to the bug, but I was just about keeping it under control - now, it just shot through the roof again.
Why, Why, Why??? am I like this? Why am I so scared of all the bodily sensations I get. When I have my logical head on, I know its my anxiety - I've suffered with this for years on and off - read every book there is to read on the subject and still I let it get me! I get so angry with myself and yet there are times when I feel so tired of fighting it, I just get dragged down again.
My main issue at the moment is my smoking and I beat myself up about it every day. I've tried several times to kick the habit, but when I'm scared, I reach for a fag (stupid, I know). Oh God!!!
Sorry for the ramble, just had to get it all out - I'm feeling really panicky at the moment.
Judi