Corinna
20-03-09, 21:37
Hi all.
My name is Corinna and I have suffered with anxiety since 2000. My Dad and step-Mum commited suicide that year, I suffered several miscarriages & was told that I'd never have children naturally, my marriage broke up and I lost my job. Believe me, it was a horrendous year. :weep: Subsequently, I started suffering from panic attacks and basically thought I was losing my mind. I never recieved any treatment and I learned over time to manage my anxiety myself. Since then, I have developed agoraphobia and although I don't suffer from panic attacks anymore (in terms of actual "attacks"), I suffer from terrible anxiety almost all of the time, depersonalisation and depression.
I had IVF with my new husband and I was blessed with my twins. :yahoo: A boy & a girl. They are now 10 months old and are amazing. Unfortunately, I have developed severe post natal depression and my anxiety at the moment is crippling me. I have been in hospital with my twins for the past 4 weeks (in a Mother & baby unit) being treated for PND and anxiety. I was taken into hospital when my husband practically dragged me into A&E when he discovered that I was planning to commit suicide. I am ashamed to admit this now and whenever I look at my children, I ask myself how I could do to them what my Dad did to me. I was in a desperate frame of mind at the time though and I'd had enough. I felt like hell had literally come to earth. My anxiety was causing me depersonalisation pretty much constantly, I couldn't breathe & my body shook with terror all day long. On top of this, I had terrible depression and spent all day crying and just wanting to die. I'd wake up in the morning and be angry at God because he didn't take me in my sleep. I just couldn't face 1 more day.
I am not better yet and I will be in hospital for another few weeks (at the moment I have home leave at the weekends) but I do feel a bit better than I did. I am on an anti-depressent (clomipramine), beta blockers and an anti-anxiety (Pregablin).
Anyway, this is my story. I'm so pleased to have found this website (in fact, my psychologist suggested this site to me) and I'm hoping to chat to people that understand what its like to live with anxiety everyday.
Lots of love, Corinna xx
My name is Corinna and I have suffered with anxiety since 2000. My Dad and step-Mum commited suicide that year, I suffered several miscarriages & was told that I'd never have children naturally, my marriage broke up and I lost my job. Believe me, it was a horrendous year. :weep: Subsequently, I started suffering from panic attacks and basically thought I was losing my mind. I never recieved any treatment and I learned over time to manage my anxiety myself. Since then, I have developed agoraphobia and although I don't suffer from panic attacks anymore (in terms of actual "attacks"), I suffer from terrible anxiety almost all of the time, depersonalisation and depression.
I had IVF with my new husband and I was blessed with my twins. :yahoo: A boy & a girl. They are now 10 months old and are amazing. Unfortunately, I have developed severe post natal depression and my anxiety at the moment is crippling me. I have been in hospital with my twins for the past 4 weeks (in a Mother & baby unit) being treated for PND and anxiety. I was taken into hospital when my husband practically dragged me into A&E when he discovered that I was planning to commit suicide. I am ashamed to admit this now and whenever I look at my children, I ask myself how I could do to them what my Dad did to me. I was in a desperate frame of mind at the time though and I'd had enough. I felt like hell had literally come to earth. My anxiety was causing me depersonalisation pretty much constantly, I couldn't breathe & my body shook with terror all day long. On top of this, I had terrible depression and spent all day crying and just wanting to die. I'd wake up in the morning and be angry at God because he didn't take me in my sleep. I just couldn't face 1 more day.
I am not better yet and I will be in hospital for another few weeks (at the moment I have home leave at the weekends) but I do feel a bit better than I did. I am on an anti-depressent (clomipramine), beta blockers and an anti-anxiety (Pregablin).
Anyway, this is my story. I'm so pleased to have found this website (in fact, my psychologist suggested this site to me) and I'm hoping to chat to people that understand what its like to live with anxiety everyday.
Lots of love, Corinna xx