LisaLisa
24-03-09, 10:40
I would really really appreciate some advice because I just feel so unable to move foward with this because I am so afraid.
I have posted before because I am very afraid that I have hiv. I have been tested at the same lab four times and they have all been negative. One of them when I had a baby, she was born in November.
The problem is that I have a great deal of the symptoms that are described on every web site. Including the one i have most recently became aware of which is nerve tingle in hands feet and tip of nose. Also I have noticed that my lips look bluish and sorrry but nipples too. I have suddenly developed something that feels like IBS but I am intensly worried is my immmune system being less effective in my digestive system and that is why this is happening. I have pain in my salivary glands almost every day and a dry mouth and can feel a swollen lymph node in my cheek and something that feels like a small cyst, and swollen glands in my neck all - although they are very small they are there and have been for three years. My periods have gone all strange and light.I seem to bruise more easily too.
I am so very depressed I jsut feel like I cant cope anymore. The guilt when I look at my daughter and my partner is overwhelming that I keep thinking i dont want to be here anymore, but I know that I cannot leave my daughter and my partner to deal with what I have done to them alone. I have told my doctor all of the symptoms that I have and they represtedly tell me they are not worried and they have done bl;ood tests regularly and tell me everything is okay apart fro last time had a raised white count and slightly higher CRP. They keep sayuing its just anxiety causing the tingling but I know its not. I just dont know where to turn next. I have phoned the Terrence Higins Trust and they tell me to trust the tests but when I have read on the internet that there are different subtypes and strains of the virus I just think that it makes perfect sense that that is whats happening.
Can someone please tell me what I should do I feel so lost and scared
Lisa
I have posted before because I am very afraid that I have hiv. I have been tested at the same lab four times and they have all been negative. One of them when I had a baby, she was born in November.
The problem is that I have a great deal of the symptoms that are described on every web site. Including the one i have most recently became aware of which is nerve tingle in hands feet and tip of nose. Also I have noticed that my lips look bluish and sorrry but nipples too. I have suddenly developed something that feels like IBS but I am intensly worried is my immmune system being less effective in my digestive system and that is why this is happening. I have pain in my salivary glands almost every day and a dry mouth and can feel a swollen lymph node in my cheek and something that feels like a small cyst, and swollen glands in my neck all - although they are very small they are there and have been for three years. My periods have gone all strange and light.I seem to bruise more easily too.
I am so very depressed I jsut feel like I cant cope anymore. The guilt when I look at my daughter and my partner is overwhelming that I keep thinking i dont want to be here anymore, but I know that I cannot leave my daughter and my partner to deal with what I have done to them alone. I have told my doctor all of the symptoms that I have and they represtedly tell me they are not worried and they have done bl;ood tests regularly and tell me everything is okay apart fro last time had a raised white count and slightly higher CRP. They keep sayuing its just anxiety causing the tingling but I know its not. I just dont know where to turn next. I have phoned the Terrence Higins Trust and they tell me to trust the tests but when I have read on the internet that there are different subtypes and strains of the virus I just think that it makes perfect sense that that is whats happening.
Can someone please tell me what I should do I feel so lost and scared
Lisa