indie44
26-03-09, 07:58
Think my other post should have gone in here, but never mind.
All I want to do it end what is going on with me at moment, I really can't take much more of what am feeling. Its the lowest I have been for a very long time and every day am struggling to give a dam. I am hiding it from some people as I don't want them getting fed up with me. I am not chatting as much to people who i can chat to online. I just want to hide and not have to give a dam. Well I don't give a dam. I feel like my anxiety is winning, my depression is winning again. I feel so lost so empty so scared. I wake up each morning with a dread in pit of stomach that doesn't go away its dies down a bit through day but its always still there. I wish i could just go back a few weeks and re start and this wouldn't have came about all this crap for me. I miss who i had in my life and the hurt I have at moment is not easing up for me. I wish i could scream and all i do is end up in tears wanting to call them. Not every day but I do I just want to call you. I need help and struggling to ask for it to a level. When all at the moment I want to do is end everything as I am fed up with the thought of fighting all this again
All I want to do it end what is going on with me at moment, I really can't take much more of what am feeling. Its the lowest I have been for a very long time and every day am struggling to give a dam. I am hiding it from some people as I don't want them getting fed up with me. I am not chatting as much to people who i can chat to online. I just want to hide and not have to give a dam. Well I don't give a dam. I feel like my anxiety is winning, my depression is winning again. I feel so lost so empty so scared. I wake up each morning with a dread in pit of stomach that doesn't go away its dies down a bit through day but its always still there. I wish i could just go back a few weeks and re start and this wouldn't have came about all this crap for me. I miss who i had in my life and the hurt I have at moment is not easing up for me. I wish i could scream and all i do is end up in tears wanting to call them. Not every day but I do I just want to call you. I need help and struggling to ask for it to a level. When all at the moment I want to do is end everything as I am fed up with the thought of fighting all this again