happyone
28-03-09, 18:57
Don't post here often as my mh probs tended to take over and I post more on a bipolar site now.
Recently though, my mood swings and life events have taken me to anxiety levels that I have not known since I first started coming here about 3 years ago. It is scarey that it has been that long:huh:
I had forgotten how consuming it can be. I am absolutely exhausted by it and coping with it worse than I ever have, even though I know more now about anx than I have ever done.
Last night I went to bed in a terrible state. I need meds to knock me to sleep but even through them I was panicking. The second I woke up, it was there, waiting for me, ready to start another day. I had to take a diazepam which I hate doing. Then my husband had to take me for a big long drive and a walk along a beach which sometimes helps. A sleep in the middle of the day to take off the effect of the diazepam!
Now it is evening, I am in knots again. I am going to have to take a sleeping pill tonight on top of my other meds....more benzos.....and I just dread tomorrow.
I am just feeling sorry for myself. I had forgotten how hard it can be.
Happyone
x
Recently though, my mood swings and life events have taken me to anxiety levels that I have not known since I first started coming here about 3 years ago. It is scarey that it has been that long:huh:
I had forgotten how consuming it can be. I am absolutely exhausted by it and coping with it worse than I ever have, even though I know more now about anx than I have ever done.
Last night I went to bed in a terrible state. I need meds to knock me to sleep but even through them I was panicking. The second I woke up, it was there, waiting for me, ready to start another day. I had to take a diazepam which I hate doing. Then my husband had to take me for a big long drive and a walk along a beach which sometimes helps. A sleep in the middle of the day to take off the effect of the diazepam!
Now it is evening, I am in knots again. I am going to have to take a sleeping pill tonight on top of my other meds....more benzos.....and I just dread tomorrow.
I am just feeling sorry for myself. I had forgotten how hard it can be.
Happyone
x