mumof4
29-03-09, 11:47
hi
i know i havent posted in a long while i was doing well going out and feeling so much better but then it came back ill explian,
was feeling better for a few months moved house at christmas i feel pregant with my 4th baby was planned.
everything was fine untill after christmas i had a bleed and went up to the early pregancy unit and got a scan got a few then they told me the baby didnt make it was only 6 weeks along when it happend got told at 9 they offered me a d&c but refused hate hospitals and thought naturall with be okay.
anyway i got to 13 weeks when i miscarried wasnt very nice but wont say to much anyway i got over that then my dad.
my dad has been a big drinker since my mum died but still went to work but when i misscarried i didnt hear from him for a week then he called to say he was drinking 2 litres of vodka a day so my sister poured the vodka down the sink,
and i went and picked him up and brought him down here he wanted to call nhs 24 for help he told them he was pooing blck stools and they told me to take him straight to his doctor which i did,
inside the doctors he was very dizzy and the doctor checked him over and was admittting him to hospital so he told us to wait in the waiting room,
i had to carry my dad as he was so dizzy cause he was coming off the drink and hadnt eaten for a week, i let him sit down and i went outside for a fag.
then i turned round and my dad was fitting it was horriable i was the only one there the surgery was empty so i ran and shouted for the doctor who tried to bring him round but they couldnt and the amblance was on the way they came and managed to bring him round and took him to hospital i followd in my car.
he was admitted to hospital and they tested him said the blck poos where drink and let him out a few days later.
he went home and went straight back on the drink drinking the same amount as last time expect it lasted for 2 weeks untill he started getting chest pains and he called a ambalnce who took him to hospital again this time they checked everything and put a tube down his throat he has a few ulcers and a inflamed liver.
when he came out he came to stay with me for a weeks so he wouldnt drink and he didnt but now he is back home i think he is drinking agian not alot but a few.
the problem i have is i keep thinking ill fit i have no history and i dont drink but that day scared me i thought he was dead.
i have also been worrying about my health and i havent done that in years i keep thinking with every chest pain i get im dying even though i know its anxiety im also worried i have cervical cancer as i havent had a smear in 10 years have booked one though and i dont have any symtoms i just cant help worrying about it.
im worried that one day i will go up and find my dad dead with drink that last time the hospital told he would have been dead soon as he wasnt eating he couldnt pee and his eyesight went but it doesnt even scare him he went to see aw achol councller who told him he could drink a few but how cam they tell someone that who has a histrory of drinkingh loads even when it wasnt the vodka it was 6 litres of cider a night. now he thinks he is okay to drink a few aslong as its not vodka and cider i just dont get that.
sorry its such a long post just had to get it off my chest.
i know i havent posted in a long while i was doing well going out and feeling so much better but then it came back ill explian,
was feeling better for a few months moved house at christmas i feel pregant with my 4th baby was planned.
everything was fine untill after christmas i had a bleed and went up to the early pregancy unit and got a scan got a few then they told me the baby didnt make it was only 6 weeks along when it happend got told at 9 they offered me a d&c but refused hate hospitals and thought naturall with be okay.
anyway i got to 13 weeks when i miscarried wasnt very nice but wont say to much anyway i got over that then my dad.
my dad has been a big drinker since my mum died but still went to work but when i misscarried i didnt hear from him for a week then he called to say he was drinking 2 litres of vodka a day so my sister poured the vodka down the sink,
and i went and picked him up and brought him down here he wanted to call nhs 24 for help he told them he was pooing blck stools and they told me to take him straight to his doctor which i did,
inside the doctors he was very dizzy and the doctor checked him over and was admittting him to hospital so he told us to wait in the waiting room,
i had to carry my dad as he was so dizzy cause he was coming off the drink and hadnt eaten for a week, i let him sit down and i went outside for a fag.
then i turned round and my dad was fitting it was horriable i was the only one there the surgery was empty so i ran and shouted for the doctor who tried to bring him round but they couldnt and the amblance was on the way they came and managed to bring him round and took him to hospital i followd in my car.
he was admitted to hospital and they tested him said the blck poos where drink and let him out a few days later.
he went home and went straight back on the drink drinking the same amount as last time expect it lasted for 2 weeks untill he started getting chest pains and he called a ambalnce who took him to hospital again this time they checked everything and put a tube down his throat he has a few ulcers and a inflamed liver.
when he came out he came to stay with me for a weeks so he wouldnt drink and he didnt but now he is back home i think he is drinking agian not alot but a few.
the problem i have is i keep thinking ill fit i have no history and i dont drink but that day scared me i thought he was dead.
i have also been worrying about my health and i havent done that in years i keep thinking with every chest pain i get im dying even though i know its anxiety im also worried i have cervical cancer as i havent had a smear in 10 years have booked one though and i dont have any symtoms i just cant help worrying about it.
im worried that one day i will go up and find my dad dead with drink that last time the hospital told he would have been dead soon as he wasnt eating he couldnt pee and his eyesight went but it doesnt even scare him he went to see aw achol councller who told him he could drink a few but how cam they tell someone that who has a histrory of drinkingh loads even when it wasnt the vodka it was 6 litres of cider a night. now he thinks he is okay to drink a few aslong as its not vodka and cider i just dont get that.
sorry its such a long post just had to get it off my chest.