lulumango
02-04-09, 16:14
Hi,
tried this a few days ago but for some reason it did not post! Work with computers every day but this is the first time I have posted anything on a site.
I came across this site early this week and felt compelled to join. So many of your stories are similar to my fight with anxiety and panic attacks that I will be brief about my history with panic.
First attack almost 4 yrs ago (has it been so long?). I was in Holland for business and having an evening meal with colleagues from all across the world. Starters came, felt fine my usual self then I remember the heat from the food hitting me. My vision went blured, started sweating lots, went bright red, heart pounding...you know the rest. Looking back it may have been a bit of heat stroke or a bug but the seed was sown. Had attacks almost daily after that for a few weeks. COuld not go into crowded rooms or restaurants, felt like I must have something very very wrong with me physically.
Since then they have come and gone. Off work since Monday as I felt dizzy for 4 days. Went to see new doctor yesterday and she gave me low dose beta blockers. Tried one when I got home. They do not suit me at all. Feel like I have been on the cider! Got a bit frightened about my reaction to them but calmed down a bit now.
What I really need is some contact with people who are the same as me.
I could go on and on about the bad stuff that panic and fear of panic has done to me and my life. No social life right now beacuse I am frightened of ruining everyones time!
The main thing to rememeber is that we are not alone! I still have my fighting spirit and I refuse to let this thing make my life smaller still!
Does anyone out there have any positive stuff to say about ways of making panic work for me or at least how to manage it without drugs? I have been for two lots of CBT (8weeks each) AND paid through the nose for hypnosis.
I was a young confident woman with no idea these problems existed before my first attack.
x lulu x
tried this a few days ago but for some reason it did not post! Work with computers every day but this is the first time I have posted anything on a site.
I came across this site early this week and felt compelled to join. So many of your stories are similar to my fight with anxiety and panic attacks that I will be brief about my history with panic.
First attack almost 4 yrs ago (has it been so long?). I was in Holland for business and having an evening meal with colleagues from all across the world. Starters came, felt fine my usual self then I remember the heat from the food hitting me. My vision went blured, started sweating lots, went bright red, heart pounding...you know the rest. Looking back it may have been a bit of heat stroke or a bug but the seed was sown. Had attacks almost daily after that for a few weeks. COuld not go into crowded rooms or restaurants, felt like I must have something very very wrong with me physically.
Since then they have come and gone. Off work since Monday as I felt dizzy for 4 days. Went to see new doctor yesterday and she gave me low dose beta blockers. Tried one when I got home. They do not suit me at all. Feel like I have been on the cider! Got a bit frightened about my reaction to them but calmed down a bit now.
What I really need is some contact with people who are the same as me.
I could go on and on about the bad stuff that panic and fear of panic has done to me and my life. No social life right now beacuse I am frightened of ruining everyones time!
The main thing to rememeber is that we are not alone! I still have my fighting spirit and I refuse to let this thing make my life smaller still!
Does anyone out there have any positive stuff to say about ways of making panic work for me or at least how to manage it without drugs? I have been for two lots of CBT (8weeks each) AND paid through the nose for hypnosis.
I was a young confident woman with no idea these problems existed before my first attack.
x lulu x