kissie123
08-04-09, 15:50
Since I was 17 , I always use to get into my head I was going to become unwell, and due to the panic it make me very hot beating heart and use to make me almost sick. I am really scared of being sick and having any kind of cold or flu. If my daughter or partner become Ill I panic and stay in my room and refuse to touch nothing in the house, which is so unfair on my family, but I can't control it.
My partner feels I have serious issues, I am getting married in a couple of months and lately I have been feeling rather low, sleeping alot some days I feel I can't even get up to do some house work. I keep snapping at my partner for no fault of his own. I feel I am falling apart very slowly. Sometimes I feel I just want to end it. I have had such a bad past, and I am not sure if its that effecting me? I never think about it so I don't know. I feel like nothing ever goes right for us theres always something that goes wrong. 2009 is meant to be a good year lots of happiness happening and a fresh start but I believe something will go wrong it MUST go wrong because it always does. I must be cursed!
I dont know what to do anymore, I cant talk to my partner like I use to because I feel he may of had enough of it too.
My partner feels I have serious issues, I am getting married in a couple of months and lately I have been feeling rather low, sleeping alot some days I feel I can't even get up to do some house work. I keep snapping at my partner for no fault of his own. I feel I am falling apart very slowly. Sometimes I feel I just want to end it. I have had such a bad past, and I am not sure if its that effecting me? I never think about it so I don't know. I feel like nothing ever goes right for us theres always something that goes wrong. 2009 is meant to be a good year lots of happiness happening and a fresh start but I believe something will go wrong it MUST go wrong because it always does. I must be cursed!
I dont know what to do anymore, I cant talk to my partner like I use to because I feel he may of had enough of it too.