I don't know what's wrong with me. I never used to be like this.

[the_nub]

I am plagued by HA. I don't understand why.

I had labyrinthitis earlier this year, and in Oct last year. It still flares up from time to time. Keep going back to doctors as I feel wrong. Doctors keep sending me away. Obviously convinced it is a brain tumour or metastatised cancer.

I had Crohn's disease at University for three years. Diagnosed aged 20. Had all sorts of terrifying symptoms like explosive bleeding from bum...yet I took it all in my stride, had no HA or anything. Just dealt with it, accepted the Crohn's diagnosis. Went into remission after being given Infliximab. Been fine since.

Have had dull ache in lower left abdomen for about a week and a half. Brain telling me it it probably bowel playing up. HA brain telling me it's bowel cancer, that it is causing an obstruction, and that it has metastatised causing my head symptoms. Imagining I have eyesight problems too.

Had no bleeding from any orafice...just a bit of watery pooooooooooooooo.

Miserable. Convinced I am dying and it is only a matter of time before I collapse and someone finds out it is too advanced to fix. Why is this happening?? Why am I being so stupid?

Going for blood test tomorrow because I have basically demanded one from the doctor, who evidently thinks I am a stupid idiot but has given me one anyway. Think they're doing a full blood count...perhaps something else? Don't know. Will this show anything up, if anything is wrong?

[Jan63]

I feel exactly the same as you, lately cancer is on my mind nearly 24 hours a day.:weep: I never used to be like this but have been like this on and off since last September now. It just seems to be one thing after the other. At the moment it's my throat I'm concerned about but I have also been concerned about bowel, cervical, breast and ovarian cancer in the last few months.:unsure:
I just wish I could be normal again like everyone else I know.:weep:

[chocoholic]

hi
me too - i was sort of labelled by my doctor this week as 'cancer phobic'.
i worry all the time convinced i will get it and that my latest symptom is some form of it.
yes full blood count should show any problems
my life is crap at mo because of fears
choco x

[the_nub]

Thanks guys. :) I'm glad that a FBC will show anything up. That will hopefully put my mind at ease a bit.

Got a horrible headache this evening. Yet another symptom no doubt.

:( I just want this to end.

[chocoholic]

headache is def a side affect of anxiety i had a constant headache for three months, saw a headache specialist and was told about tth (tension type headaches) you get pain muzziness blurred vision so try not to worry. also told that if you take tablets for it for a long time it can actually bring on headaches so only take something when you feel it necessary
choco x

[antrob1000]

I am in teh sam situatuion I have never had any HA until November last year when I found a lump in my mouth (and I am a ex smoker) which turned out was just a cyst. Ever since I have had a list of endless health worries. In the last 3 months I have been to the dentist 4 times and the doctor 3 times. I just keep feelign taht i am going round in circles. I just dont understand I never used to be like this.

This morning i have found a cut on my lip which my logical brain tells me it is just that I have bitten my lip in the night. But my HA brain tells me it is something serious. I also have had a mouth ulcer for over a week and it is healing now as it is smaller and no longer hurts but I am still convinced it may be something serious.

I also have a painful tiny lump under my armpit which I think is a swolen gland (I have had it before and it went after a few days) My logical brain tells me it is nothing to worry about but again my HA brain tells me it is something serious.

[the_nub]

Had my bloods taken today. They took three tubes full, which I guess is good because they're testing it for lots, I guess. Have to ring back in a week. With it being Easter, though, it might take longer....boo! Going to be the longest wait of my life, yet I know what will happen:

Situation 1: there is something up with the bloods and they call me in (might be something as straightforward as Crohn's flareup). I assume I am definitely dying, freak out, and have a panic attack.

Situation 2: there is nothing wrong with the bloods. My relief lasts for approximately two days before I convince myself there IS something wrong, but the blood test hasn't picked it up. Go to doctors, demand MRI, get laughed out of office.


GRRRR, my logical brain just knows that all this is balls. My HA brain is FREAKING OUT.

:(

[the_nub]

WOW. Dr Google has come up trumps for once!

Those flashing, blink-and-you-miss-them stabbing headache pains I've been having?

They're ice pick headaches!!

Anyone who has these, look them up. Clearly states on every site I've read that they are PRIMARY headaches without a cause (headaches caused by tumours etc are SECONDARY headaches)!

I have wanted to know what these damn headaches are for AGES.

Doesn't help the fact I've got them HUGE amounts this evening. :( But...yay! Dr Google isn't TOTALLY evil, after all...