steveo
13-04-09, 22:24
Hello everyone! Thought this would be a great way to get things off my chest and let you all know how silly I am!
Going on holiday tomorrow with alot of friends. Im driving to Bruges in Belgium and then to a 2 day music festival there. Been twice before, both times experiencing awful awful panic attacks. Wasn't able to go last year due to a drop in my mental health but as so many of my mates are going this year, it was very hard to say no. I will be driving my car with a lot of my friends and we are staying at a hostel in bruges for one night then off to the festival. All very very scary stuff to me! The worst part is when im in my tent at night in the festival.... I remember the extreme fear I had the last two times! I always take my own tent for just me! The first time I went I had to get really really drunk to get rid of my anxiety! This is such a massive thing for me to be doing. I can't watch most of the bands at the festival anyway due to the large ammount of people crammed into the outside stage areas. I haven't spent too much time worrying about it until now (the night before!!).
I bought a book about Panic attacks to take, also lots of little puzzle books. I spend alot of my time taking pictures so it keeps my mind occupied.
Camping in the middle of Belgium, at a busy festival, whilst probably very very underslept, very very hot = Garuenteed Panics!
Sorry this message was so long, Thanks to anyone who took the time to read and thanks in advance to anyone who replies! Can I take one of you guys with me? lol.
xxxxx Steve-O!
Going on holiday tomorrow with alot of friends. Im driving to Bruges in Belgium and then to a 2 day music festival there. Been twice before, both times experiencing awful awful panic attacks. Wasn't able to go last year due to a drop in my mental health but as so many of my mates are going this year, it was very hard to say no. I will be driving my car with a lot of my friends and we are staying at a hostel in bruges for one night then off to the festival. All very very scary stuff to me! The worst part is when im in my tent at night in the festival.... I remember the extreme fear I had the last two times! I always take my own tent for just me! The first time I went I had to get really really drunk to get rid of my anxiety! This is such a massive thing for me to be doing. I can't watch most of the bands at the festival anyway due to the large ammount of people crammed into the outside stage areas. I haven't spent too much time worrying about it until now (the night before!!).
I bought a book about Panic attacks to take, also lots of little puzzle books. I spend alot of my time taking pictures so it keeps my mind occupied.
Camping in the middle of Belgium, at a busy festival, whilst probably very very underslept, very very hot = Garuenteed Panics!
Sorry this message was so long, Thanks to anyone who took the time to read and thanks in advance to anyone who replies! Can I take one of you guys with me? lol.
xxxxx Steve-O!