elrpigeon
15-08-05, 14:31
Hi, i have been thinking about missing my boyfriend which i have coped with ok and he is back in two days (post "2weeks without contact-how will i cope?").. then suddenly i felt very weird in the head.
Its the sensation you get with head colds where you move your head and your eyes feel like they take longer to catch up so you feel almost seperate from yourself.. i cant explain it better-apologies, but basically i start worrying i am going to die of something which has gotten to me, cos i love mark and it upset me if i didnt get to spend my life with him basically, i do have a bit of a cold but i still thought it was something else, something sinister...:(.
Im more vulnerable to these thoughts getting more control than they should when i am near or within the monthly us females get, i unfortunately suffer with paranoid obsessional people hate me, marks cheated kinda thoughts as well as being over concious of my body and any ill feelings like now.. i really need someone to tell me that im not worthless and im not being stupid, cos i am but its not my fault.. im just fed up of feeling like a headache is a brain tumour, giddyness means pressure build up etc.. around these times.. i just wish i could see mark, but ill have to wait for that.. at least ill get to speak to him on the phone either wednesday or thursday...
Emily X
Power of the mind is incredible, we now think negative by it, we can get out thinking positive too!
Its the sensation you get with head colds where you move your head and your eyes feel like they take longer to catch up so you feel almost seperate from yourself.. i cant explain it better-apologies, but basically i start worrying i am going to die of something which has gotten to me, cos i love mark and it upset me if i didnt get to spend my life with him basically, i do have a bit of a cold but i still thought it was something else, something sinister...:(.
Im more vulnerable to these thoughts getting more control than they should when i am near or within the monthly us females get, i unfortunately suffer with paranoid obsessional people hate me, marks cheated kinda thoughts as well as being over concious of my body and any ill feelings like now.. i really need someone to tell me that im not worthless and im not being stupid, cos i am but its not my fault.. im just fed up of feeling like a headache is a brain tumour, giddyness means pressure build up etc.. around these times.. i just wish i could see mark, but ill have to wait for that.. at least ill get to speak to him on the phone either wednesday or thursday...
Emily X
Power of the mind is incredible, we now think negative by it, we can get out thinking positive too!