daniel22
18-04-09, 04:00
Hi everyone. me again lol
Been with my partner for 3 years on which i always got nervous just incase he cheated on me. he did cheat on me in the 3 weeks being together but after that my anxiety levels increase...as so i think....we had our problems but what couple dont right?. but over christmas we had a short break to clear our minds and refresh on how we felt for each other. well when he returned home i was convinced he had cheated on me, based on my instinct, a week later he told me that he had sexual contact (full on) with another man. and so on........so we then talked but i was upset and really hurt i couldnt really deal with it in one go so we talked over days....we eventually decided to fight it out and save wot we had worked for then a week or two after that i had my very first Panic attack. and its got worse day by day. but i fink goin back and forwards to the doctors added more tension to my anxiety goin through diagnositcs procedures. now i dont know weather to end it with him or stay with him. i do trust him but not as much as id liked. do i throw away 3 years of my life and start a fresh or will that make my panic disorder worse bcus i b alone? i dont know. ive been talking to some other lad who works at the hospital where my current partner works and he seems really caring. my friend who is a doctor yes a doctor said i should dump him bcus thats my main source of panic! or is it! is he saying that so i get with him or is he saying that for my benifit. i dont know im confused and really need some advice. im sorry for the essay but all replys will help me alot. i do love my b/f very much but i just want to feel myself again and be able to go bed at night without fear, attacks, fast heart rate thinking im gonna be dead in a week. i just hate my life at the moment and my personal life and my disorder is causing me to get really depressed and scared just incase i try killing myself. thanks guys
Been with my partner for 3 years on which i always got nervous just incase he cheated on me. he did cheat on me in the 3 weeks being together but after that my anxiety levels increase...as so i think....we had our problems but what couple dont right?. but over christmas we had a short break to clear our minds and refresh on how we felt for each other. well when he returned home i was convinced he had cheated on me, based on my instinct, a week later he told me that he had sexual contact (full on) with another man. and so on........so we then talked but i was upset and really hurt i couldnt really deal with it in one go so we talked over days....we eventually decided to fight it out and save wot we had worked for then a week or two after that i had my very first Panic attack. and its got worse day by day. but i fink goin back and forwards to the doctors added more tension to my anxiety goin through diagnositcs procedures. now i dont know weather to end it with him or stay with him. i do trust him but not as much as id liked. do i throw away 3 years of my life and start a fresh or will that make my panic disorder worse bcus i b alone? i dont know. ive been talking to some other lad who works at the hospital where my current partner works and he seems really caring. my friend who is a doctor yes a doctor said i should dump him bcus thats my main source of panic! or is it! is he saying that so i get with him or is he saying that for my benifit. i dont know im confused and really need some advice. im sorry for the essay but all replys will help me alot. i do love my b/f very much but i just want to feel myself again and be able to go bed at night without fear, attacks, fast heart rate thinking im gonna be dead in a week. i just hate my life at the moment and my personal life and my disorder is causing me to get really depressed and scared just incase i try killing myself. thanks guys