bluesparkle
21-04-09, 11:10
i am in a proper pickle!
i dont get it at all,
i have come so far and achieved so much and now ...
wham!!! panic is rife again, in fact im getting more actual panic attacks than before, it was more anxiety before.
i have had yet anouther rough night you all know how it goes cant settle heart pounding sweats etc.ive had so many of these lately.
this morning im not feeling much better either.
i am on holiday from work until thurs and last week i seemed to achive so much now i cant even go out and get in the car today (i was invited for coffee at a friends ).
i feel such a fool... why can i not get a grip on this.
my theory is a problem i have or should i say situation that by next week end will come to an end... but im not sure that is really it and if it is will i struggle more when this has happened.(my ex who many of you have supported me through the break up, will be moving and contact will stop as he has a new life beginging for him, although i will see him occasionally as he works local but i wont be able to just pick up the phone etc infact i am going to erase numbers so i dont get tempted as that is not fair).i am happy and pleased for him but worried how i will cope, i thought i had a grip on this all now but obvoiously not.
im sure this isnt the only reason why though...
i do not want this panic ... i am really struggling with it i want to be happy and enjoy life i have so much going for me ive got my kids although grown up now, and ive got a job i love.i am sick and tired of worrying and stressing.
i am so sorry this is so long i just needed to tell someone how im feeling and someone that understands.
rach
i dont get it at all,
i have come so far and achieved so much and now ...
wham!!! panic is rife again, in fact im getting more actual panic attacks than before, it was more anxiety before.
i have had yet anouther rough night you all know how it goes cant settle heart pounding sweats etc.ive had so many of these lately.
this morning im not feeling much better either.
i am on holiday from work until thurs and last week i seemed to achive so much now i cant even go out and get in the car today (i was invited for coffee at a friends ).
i feel such a fool... why can i not get a grip on this.
my theory is a problem i have or should i say situation that by next week end will come to an end... but im not sure that is really it and if it is will i struggle more when this has happened.(my ex who many of you have supported me through the break up, will be moving and contact will stop as he has a new life beginging for him, although i will see him occasionally as he works local but i wont be able to just pick up the phone etc infact i am going to erase numbers so i dont get tempted as that is not fair).i am happy and pleased for him but worried how i will cope, i thought i had a grip on this all now but obvoiously not.
im sure this isnt the only reason why though...
i do not want this panic ... i am really struggling with it i want to be happy and enjoy life i have so much going for me ive got my kids although grown up now, and ive got a job i love.i am sick and tired of worrying and stressing.
i am so sorry this is so long i just needed to tell someone how im feeling and someone that understands.
rach