Worry_Head
22-04-09, 16:49
Hello,
I haven't been here in a while but I've "relapsed" again with my health anxiety and anxiety in general and felt coming back here would be somewhat cathartic.
I am currently in between jobs (I quit my job in December after 4 years as I hated it and felt it was making me ill) and therefore am worrying excessively about getting a job and managing financially. This is manifesting itself again in me worrying excessively about my and my boyfriend's health - convinced that we've both got some form of illness or something, as we're both always extremely tired and both find it really hard to get out of bed in the morning.
I'm worrying so much that some days it's preventing me from applying for jobs as I feel so anxious about my perceived lack of ability. I've had a few interviews for senior manager positions so far, but although I'm rising to the occasion at the interviews I feel so lacking in confidence inside and feel like a fraud. My mind doesn't feel clear - it's all muddled. I feel like a shadow of my former self. It doesn't help that I'm also doing a course and there is a lot of coursework to do, which I'm putting off like nobody's business.
I would welcome any encouragement from anyone or suggested coping mechanisms for rising about the anxiety and motivating oneself. It's silly really, as I responded to another thread where a person felt anxious and lacking in motivation, suggesting that the person ensured they were doing some exercise every day if they could. Why aren't I taking my own advice? God I hate myself and feel so weak (mentally).
Sorry for the doom and gloom.
Suzanne
I haven't been here in a while but I've "relapsed" again with my health anxiety and anxiety in general and felt coming back here would be somewhat cathartic.
I am currently in between jobs (I quit my job in December after 4 years as I hated it and felt it was making me ill) and therefore am worrying excessively about getting a job and managing financially. This is manifesting itself again in me worrying excessively about my and my boyfriend's health - convinced that we've both got some form of illness or something, as we're both always extremely tired and both find it really hard to get out of bed in the morning.
I'm worrying so much that some days it's preventing me from applying for jobs as I feel so anxious about my perceived lack of ability. I've had a few interviews for senior manager positions so far, but although I'm rising to the occasion at the interviews I feel so lacking in confidence inside and feel like a fraud. My mind doesn't feel clear - it's all muddled. I feel like a shadow of my former self. It doesn't help that I'm also doing a course and there is a lot of coursework to do, which I'm putting off like nobody's business.
I would welcome any encouragement from anyone or suggested coping mechanisms for rising about the anxiety and motivating oneself. It's silly really, as I responded to another thread where a person felt anxious and lacking in motivation, suggesting that the person ensured they were doing some exercise every day if they could. Why aren't I taking my own advice? God I hate myself and feel so weak (mentally).
Sorry for the doom and gloom.
Suzanne