LisaLisa
24-04-09, 10:54
I really hope someone can help me to feel a bit less stressed about this, its really scared me.
I have been really really scared about hiv for along long time, feels like forever Before that i worried that i had thyroid cancer and lymphoma. But the hiv thing has really gotten out of control for me because i googled loads ages ago and now im just petrified because seem to have soooooo many signs.
It started with being able to feel glands in my neck and then having a dry mouth and them finding a lump in my cheek and then i started to notice all this weird hair growth and period issues. I freaked out so I went to GUM and got tested and the result was negative. I didnt beleive it so I went back again and they said they would test me againfor my peace of mind - it was negative again. At the same time i asked my dr to do a test and that was negative too. and then as part of antenatal tests, i got tested again and that was also negative. So i tried to calm down about it. Only the symptoms seemed sooo similar that i started to doubt the resluts again and wenton interenet again and was horrified to read that there are loads of different strains and that tests dont detect them all. So now iam in constant fear and anxiety that i definately have it and noone is helping me and i am running out of time and that my partner and my baby are both giong to die and its my fault. I have posted this before and folks were really helpfull .
The reason i am posting again is that i am very scared about this horrible tight gripping sensation i have been gettingin my stomach and really bad reflux which i never had before having my baby six months ago. Also i keep getting muscle pain and the mood swings are really unbearable now although i had that a little before i was pregnant. It just feels like something is getting worse and it seems so much like the normal course of HIV.
Can anyone help me becasue i dont know what to do next. Im being labeled as an attention seeker and hypochondriac and im so scared and alone. I have tried everything to get more tests but every door is closing.
Sorry to drain everyone again
Lisa
xxx
I have been really really scared about hiv for along long time, feels like forever Before that i worried that i had thyroid cancer and lymphoma. But the hiv thing has really gotten out of control for me because i googled loads ages ago and now im just petrified because seem to have soooooo many signs.
It started with being able to feel glands in my neck and then having a dry mouth and them finding a lump in my cheek and then i started to notice all this weird hair growth and period issues. I freaked out so I went to GUM and got tested and the result was negative. I didnt beleive it so I went back again and they said they would test me againfor my peace of mind - it was negative again. At the same time i asked my dr to do a test and that was negative too. and then as part of antenatal tests, i got tested again and that was also negative. So i tried to calm down about it. Only the symptoms seemed sooo similar that i started to doubt the resluts again and wenton interenet again and was horrified to read that there are loads of different strains and that tests dont detect them all. So now iam in constant fear and anxiety that i definately have it and noone is helping me and i am running out of time and that my partner and my baby are both giong to die and its my fault. I have posted this before and folks were really helpfull .
The reason i am posting again is that i am very scared about this horrible tight gripping sensation i have been gettingin my stomach and really bad reflux which i never had before having my baby six months ago. Also i keep getting muscle pain and the mood swings are really unbearable now although i had that a little before i was pregnant. It just feels like something is getting worse and it seems so much like the normal course of HIV.
Can anyone help me becasue i dont know what to do next. Im being labeled as an attention seeker and hypochondriac and im so scared and alone. I have tried everything to get more tests but every door is closing.
Sorry to drain everyone again
Lisa
xxx