Amethysta
24-04-09, 11:54
Hiya!
Found this site through randomly searching on Google & it seems to be full of panicky, anxiety ridden people like me. I thought I was on my own & no one else seems to understand how I think, but it seems I'm not on my own!
Basically I am a worrier. I worry about everything & anything & I get so wound up that I can't eat & I feel sick.
Since I was small I've always had a fear of buildings collapsing (whilst I'm in them). This can be set off by many things. I used to think my bedroom floor was going to collapse because I didn't think it could take the weight of my bed, wardrobe etc etc.
Also if I am in a place where there is loud music playing, concert, party I get panicky & go light headed because I think the vibrations will make the ceiling fall down or the speakers will explode.
I was at the 02 the other day & I sat & quietly got myself into a state because I couldn't see how the stadium was holding up so many people & thought that it would all collapse.
My worrying is not just confined to that though. Any little thing will set me off. I worry that things will overheat & catch fire like the TV, washing machine, boiler or just anything at all really.
I'm scared of ceiling fans, especially if they wobble as I think they will come flying off.
Also in the car, I'm scared the tyres will burst or if the car is full of people that the structure will fail because of the weight & it'll crash.
I feel like such an idiot. I know these fears are irrational & I can't think of anything that set it off from when I was younger, but I can't help it. I have no idea whether I suffer from anxiety or panic attacks or whether what I suffer from even has a name. I can control it to a certain extent but it's getting worse as I get older. I'm 30 now by the way.
Sorry for the long introduction!!!!
Found this site through randomly searching on Google & it seems to be full of panicky, anxiety ridden people like me. I thought I was on my own & no one else seems to understand how I think, but it seems I'm not on my own!
Basically I am a worrier. I worry about everything & anything & I get so wound up that I can't eat & I feel sick.
Since I was small I've always had a fear of buildings collapsing (whilst I'm in them). This can be set off by many things. I used to think my bedroom floor was going to collapse because I didn't think it could take the weight of my bed, wardrobe etc etc.
Also if I am in a place where there is loud music playing, concert, party I get panicky & go light headed because I think the vibrations will make the ceiling fall down or the speakers will explode.
I was at the 02 the other day & I sat & quietly got myself into a state because I couldn't see how the stadium was holding up so many people & thought that it would all collapse.
My worrying is not just confined to that though. Any little thing will set me off. I worry that things will overheat & catch fire like the TV, washing machine, boiler or just anything at all really.
I'm scared of ceiling fans, especially if they wobble as I think they will come flying off.
Also in the car, I'm scared the tyres will burst or if the car is full of people that the structure will fail because of the weight & it'll crash.
I feel like such an idiot. I know these fears are irrational & I can't think of anything that set it off from when I was younger, but I can't help it. I have no idea whether I suffer from anxiety or panic attacks or whether what I suffer from even has a name. I can control it to a certain extent but it's getting worse as I get older. I'm 30 now by the way.
Sorry for the long introduction!!!!