phoenixashes
03-05-09, 07:44
Hello everyone! Funny thing happened this evening... I was looking online doing exactly what this website tells me not to do - panicking - when I found this website! And I couldn't help but smile a little smile at the irony of it all.
A bit about myself... let's see. I am 20, female, and from the US. I have health anxiety, and have for, well, as long as I can really remember. I had a VSD when I was born and had open heart surgery when I was young, so naturally most of my anxiety and "potential issues" are centered around my heart or general chest area. I have been cleared medically since my surgery for a number of years and last year after having some kind of gastro-intestinal something or other (which apparently feels just like a heart attack, which is what I thought it was... big surprise, I'm sure!) I had my heart checked out to ensure it had nothing to do with that, and my heart was fine. They said my heartrate was a little fast, but nothing more than that. I had all sorts of machines and x-rays and what not, though, so I figured if there was anything there, they would have noticed.
Anywho, I have noticed I spend a lot of my time when I am sitting around wondering what serious, fatal, rare, uncommon, or any mix of the above disease or disorder I may have, I find I keep my middle and index finger pressed safely to my neck to feel my pulse, just to ensure it is regular, or at least regular-ish. After reading several forum posts and things along the left side of the bar, I came to the conclusion that this place was for me. I have anxiety attacks of the worst kind, and some of these posts have already calmed me down immensly about what it is that I am currently stressing over, even though I know I shouldn't be.
It's a pleasure to make your aquaintance(s), and I hope that you all have a wonderful day/midday/night/whatever time it is wherever you happen to be.
-- phoenix :flowers:
A bit about myself... let's see. I am 20, female, and from the US. I have health anxiety, and have for, well, as long as I can really remember. I had a VSD when I was born and had open heart surgery when I was young, so naturally most of my anxiety and "potential issues" are centered around my heart or general chest area. I have been cleared medically since my surgery for a number of years and last year after having some kind of gastro-intestinal something or other (which apparently feels just like a heart attack, which is what I thought it was... big surprise, I'm sure!) I had my heart checked out to ensure it had nothing to do with that, and my heart was fine. They said my heartrate was a little fast, but nothing more than that. I had all sorts of machines and x-rays and what not, though, so I figured if there was anything there, they would have noticed.
Anywho, I have noticed I spend a lot of my time when I am sitting around wondering what serious, fatal, rare, uncommon, or any mix of the above disease or disorder I may have, I find I keep my middle and index finger pressed safely to my neck to feel my pulse, just to ensure it is regular, or at least regular-ish. After reading several forum posts and things along the left side of the bar, I came to the conclusion that this place was for me. I have anxiety attacks of the worst kind, and some of these posts have already calmed me down immensly about what it is that I am currently stressing over, even though I know I shouldn't be.
It's a pleasure to make your aquaintance(s), and I hope that you all have a wonderful day/midday/night/whatever time it is wherever you happen to be.
-- phoenix :flowers: