Kinkajou
22-08-05, 14:23
Hi
I am a 31 year old woman suffering from anxiety and depression. I consider myself to be a bit of an odd one I suppose. I guess I've had a lot of trigger factors to provoke my depression etc (many family problems, history of sexual abuse as a youngster, drug and alcohol issues which are now five years behind me, health problems, stressful job, I could go on...but I won't). I know in myself that I am a good person and I am always struggling to do the right thing, but I feel very guilty and like a failure most of the time. I see others as "normal" or "acceptable" and myself as "different" and "shameful". I am currently in therapy, this time for the last year, but on and off since I was 19 and first experienced anxiety and depression when I was at uni. I have been dogged by intermittent bouts of terrible despair and depression and panic attacks since then. I am tempted to think this is directly related to my childhood issues and I am trying to sort them out with therapy.
At the moment I am on sick leave as I am currently pretty depressed (symptoms: insomnia, vivid nighmares if I do sleep, exhaustion, sadness, hopelessness, inability to do stuff like keep my house clean or keep on top of things, can't muster energy to do things, leave house alone even for a pint of milk etc. and suidical thoughts. Crying etc.)
I have been feeling like this for 3 months now. Off work for the last 6 weeks (and now starting to panic about that too - typical)
Ho hum. Guess it's a bad patch at the moment.
Kinkajou
I am a 31 year old woman suffering from anxiety and depression. I consider myself to be a bit of an odd one I suppose. I guess I've had a lot of trigger factors to provoke my depression etc (many family problems, history of sexual abuse as a youngster, drug and alcohol issues which are now five years behind me, health problems, stressful job, I could go on...but I won't). I know in myself that I am a good person and I am always struggling to do the right thing, but I feel very guilty and like a failure most of the time. I see others as "normal" or "acceptable" and myself as "different" and "shameful". I am currently in therapy, this time for the last year, but on and off since I was 19 and first experienced anxiety and depression when I was at uni. I have been dogged by intermittent bouts of terrible despair and depression and panic attacks since then. I am tempted to think this is directly related to my childhood issues and I am trying to sort them out with therapy.
At the moment I am on sick leave as I am currently pretty depressed (symptoms: insomnia, vivid nighmares if I do sleep, exhaustion, sadness, hopelessness, inability to do stuff like keep my house clean or keep on top of things, can't muster energy to do things, leave house alone even for a pint of milk etc. and suidical thoughts. Crying etc.)
I have been feeling like this for 3 months now. Off work for the last 6 weeks (and now starting to panic about that too - typical)
Ho hum. Guess it's a bad patch at the moment.
Kinkajou