~Mary~
23-08-05, 02:35
Hi, yes I'm one of the newbies, and I'm not at all used to using this forum. Or any forum, for that matter,ha. I just wanted to introduce myself and hopefully I'll find at least a little comfort in this website ~
My name's Mary. I'm 16 and I've been having anxiety problems for a little over 2 years now. It's continually gotten worse, and its even prevented me from starting my junior year of highschool! [V] A few days ago i was "offcially" diagnosed by a phsychiatrist as having agoraphobia along with deppression. I had been on zoloft for about 9 months for anxiety and panic disorder, but up until now I didnt even know what agoraphobia was. I've gone through waves of my agoraphobia and panic over the past few years but right now its DEFINITELY at the worst its ever been. I'm scared to do almost anything. And its so so frusturating becuase I didnt used to be like this. :( I used to be outgoing and liked to do all kinds of things. And Ive always looked forward to my highschool years...now I'm afraid I'll never have any good memories of highschool.
I suffer with nausea HORRIBLY, and sometimes I go without eating for days becuase if i do eat it makes me feel even sicker. When I have my panic attacks, they're like a lot of people's are; I have almost uncontrolable shaking, I go from hot to cold and pretty soon my mind is just spinning and I cant even think logically. Saying I'm "tired" of this would be, perhaps, the biggest understatement ever expressed. I deal with deppression becuase of it and sometimes I feel so paralized and I'm so disapointed in myself I just cry and cry. I know most of you know what its like to feel like this and in a way it helps to know that there are other people who feel a lot like you... but at the same time, that knowledge doesnt always make it easier when I'm attempting to go somewhere I'm afraid of OR to try to explain to my friends when I miss school becuase of it. Using the "I dont know, I just didnt feel good" excuse has become a regular saying of mine.
I just started on zoloft again a few days ago after being taken off of it, due to the recent "suicide scare". Have you heard about that one? I guess there were studies released saying that zoloft has had a negative affect in many teens, causing sucide and it urged doctors to try to stay away from it with kids. I understand the precautions but its seemed wierd to me. I mean, any kind of medicine could end up having a negative affect on someone, it just depends on the person. But what about all the other young people that have commited suicide becuase they were so unhappy with themselves and NEEDED the medication??? But this is just my opinion, so I hope i dont offend anyone. So anyway... a phsyciatrist I just started seeing shares in my opinion and put me back on the medicine. But knowing that even with the medicine I will still have to deal with this hurts so bad.
It scares me, I cant explain how much it scares me. and i dont just mean it scared me when I have to go somewhere or do something. It scares me that I have become someone I didnt used to be. And someone few of even my closest friends know. So again I hope I find some comfort in this website and I hope I can maybe be of comfort to others when someone needs someone to talk to. :DSo, sorry such a long "story" but honestly, that was it in a nutshell :) So... Hello everyone.
~*~MaRy
My name's Mary. I'm 16 and I've been having anxiety problems for a little over 2 years now. It's continually gotten worse, and its even prevented me from starting my junior year of highschool! [V] A few days ago i was "offcially" diagnosed by a phsychiatrist as having agoraphobia along with deppression. I had been on zoloft for about 9 months for anxiety and panic disorder, but up until now I didnt even know what agoraphobia was. I've gone through waves of my agoraphobia and panic over the past few years but right now its DEFINITELY at the worst its ever been. I'm scared to do almost anything. And its so so frusturating becuase I didnt used to be like this. :( I used to be outgoing and liked to do all kinds of things. And Ive always looked forward to my highschool years...now I'm afraid I'll never have any good memories of highschool.
I suffer with nausea HORRIBLY, and sometimes I go without eating for days becuase if i do eat it makes me feel even sicker. When I have my panic attacks, they're like a lot of people's are; I have almost uncontrolable shaking, I go from hot to cold and pretty soon my mind is just spinning and I cant even think logically. Saying I'm "tired" of this would be, perhaps, the biggest understatement ever expressed. I deal with deppression becuase of it and sometimes I feel so paralized and I'm so disapointed in myself I just cry and cry. I know most of you know what its like to feel like this and in a way it helps to know that there are other people who feel a lot like you... but at the same time, that knowledge doesnt always make it easier when I'm attempting to go somewhere I'm afraid of OR to try to explain to my friends when I miss school becuase of it. Using the "I dont know, I just didnt feel good" excuse has become a regular saying of mine.
I just started on zoloft again a few days ago after being taken off of it, due to the recent "suicide scare". Have you heard about that one? I guess there were studies released saying that zoloft has had a negative affect in many teens, causing sucide and it urged doctors to try to stay away from it with kids. I understand the precautions but its seemed wierd to me. I mean, any kind of medicine could end up having a negative affect on someone, it just depends on the person. But what about all the other young people that have commited suicide becuase they were so unhappy with themselves and NEEDED the medication??? But this is just my opinion, so I hope i dont offend anyone. So anyway... a phsyciatrist I just started seeing shares in my opinion and put me back on the medicine. But knowing that even with the medicine I will still have to deal with this hurts so bad.
It scares me, I cant explain how much it scares me. and i dont just mean it scared me when I have to go somewhere or do something. It scares me that I have become someone I didnt used to be. And someone few of even my closest friends know. So again I hope I find some comfort in this website and I hope I can maybe be of comfort to others when someone needs someone to talk to. :DSo, sorry such a long "story" but honestly, that was it in a nutshell :) So... Hello everyone.
~*~MaRy