stress

[alba]

:weep: today the wh0le day i feeel so so sick no energy felt giddy, dizzy light head whole day can u imagaine how suffering i am i can't even walk steady i feel like giving up \just now, but i think i hv gone thru this so many times, so i carry on my day in suffer i felt so sad. very sick, i am like a zombie walking, i cnat' even focus, i have a bad headeache like tension headache is terrble, like i can;'t sit when i sit or not doing anything or when i use my brain to think i feel my brain wanted to explode and my heart beat so fast. the worst is when walking i feel so hazy goggy and dizzy, my brain just stop working and i keep on walking fast feeling so scared like i am being chased, i just want to feel ok. tomorrow another day i keep on wanting togive up, i am so tired. i am scared of people too, becos people always hurt and disappoint and bully me, how can i forget all my past painful experience and be well again. iam like scared everyday, its only when i met my family after work that i feel so relieved and a bit better, at work i feel i am cooped up in jail or i feel so congested and scared of all ppl that keep on bullying and hurting me it not much just 3 or 4person, that i feel so uncomfortable with making me so stress and disturbed my emotion and making me feel so down and useless. i am very very stress at this moment.and becos of my stresses i become so moody at home with my kids, that i got no mood to talk or play wtih them, i am too preoccupied of the problems and ppl at work. how can i be okayh and happy again, where do i start to trust ppl.

[alba]

believe me or not, i am now not sleepy at all, i feel so alert and ok, it's 11pm already, all my family members are alseep, except me, i keep on tossing on the bed, keep on thinking what happened today in the office, all things that happened in the morning is fresh in my mind tonight and how i dread having to face the bully, gosh my head is heavy the more i think of it, the more i think when can i run away from all these, am i mad? how to recover and how to not be crazy anymore, how to be matured and happy person, in the end i can't sleep, so i wake up. and funny thing, in office tdy i felt so so dizzy, light headed, sleepy, heavy head and nearly faint or fall or so dizzy that i can't even carry myself or sit at my place in the office, i sit longer than 5mins i feel so stress and tension headache came. now i can't sleep at all, don't feel sleepy anymore. my family members are very angry with me, becos this morning i complained to them i am so so sleepy nearly faint, and now they expected me to rest and sleep but i can't i told them i am not sleeping, now they don't trust me anymore.

[alba]

oh yeah as all this happening, i get ear blocked like i can't hear and something is shaky in my ear, i will feel like theres alot of phelgm in my ear, or water, what is this? then i feel so out of balance. and it try to dig my ear but it never help

[kestral]

hello alba
you should consult a doctor as your stress levels are way to high. if you get the right medication you will be so much better.
alan

[alba]

doctor gave me xanax and librax but i am scared to take becos i hear some actors/actrress took that kind of medicaton and died, so i am afradi to take. and my doc say xanax cos u to be high, is it?

[alba]

its crazy it is attckign me now, i am shivering trembling, heart beating so fast, i see things all so blury, i feel so scared, drowsy, giddy, dizzy, help me, what should ido?i cant see people. i am so scared, heart beating so fast.

[IllegallyBlond]

Hey Alba. I hope you are still on so you can see this. Just take a couple deep breathes and try to calm yourself down. Keep telling yourself it's just anxiety and that it will soon pass. You aren't going to die, and there isn't anything majorly wrong with you. Try doing something that will take your mind off of it. I know that it is hard, but try. You are fine. My brother takes Xanax for his panic attacks, and he takes it and lays down. Maybe it will help you sleep. I'll be online for a bit if you want to chat.

XXXX

[theforester]

Hello Alba, sorry you aren't feeling too good right now. It sounds like you are having a panic attack to me. They are no fun and are very scary, but they can't hurt you. Try not to be afraid of it. Try laying down and taking long deep breaths in and out. Some relaxing music can help as well. It is really difficult, I understand, but try not to think about how terrible you feel. Try thinking about something calming that you enjoy instead.

The Xanax that your doctor gave you is very good at preventing panic attacks, it was for me at least. As far as I am aware no one has died from taking Xanax correctly. It is possible that the actors you are talking about either took way too much or had other drugs with the Xanax that caused some interactions. I was given 0.25mg tablets back in college and I could completely eliminate my anxiety and prevent panic for much of the day with only one pill. 0.25mg is a pretty low dose by the way. The maximum safe doseage is between 5.0mg - 10.0mg in a day depending on the person. I never had any strange side effects from this Xanax, I simply felt better. The only problem with the Xanax is that the doctor told me not to take it unless I really needed it because you can become dependent on it.

I'm not a doctor, so I can't really tell you to do something, but since your doctor gave you the Xanax I'm not too worried about suggesting that you take it, especially if it is a low dose. If you have a low dose pill (0.25mg - 0.5mg) I think you would feel much better if you took it and then did some deep breathing and relaxation for at least 20 minutes. It should help you. It is up to you though. If you are still worried, at least try the deep breathing and relaxation.

I hope you feel better soon Alba :hugs:

[xfilme]

Have you tried getting a blood test to rule out a deficiency?

[alba]

thank you so much, i am going crazy just now, i don't know why, whenever i enter my office i feel all these attacks, i feel so trapped in office, whne iwalk i feel so dizzy, giddy and out of balance,couldit be i feel so insecure scared when i enter office becos iam bullied there and hurt so many times by someone, and the memories is so scary and embarassng and painful, the moment iput my foot on my table, i got this feeling of scared, disappointment, boredom, burnout and pain. could that the reason why i am so so stress up, i dont feel happy at all, i feel so depressed and trapped. and when i go out for lunch, i am still very painful giddy becos i know i 've to come back to office again, after lunch back to office the feeling is evcen worse, i can't breathe, heart beating fast and stress. but when i am out of my ofice, meaning after work, i feel so so relief, freedom and i feel less tension even i do feel stress but i am able to control bit by bit, so everyday is madness to me, it is a dejavu, and knowing i can never get better atall.sometimes at home iam also stress,so i can't be at peace all the time, today i feel so so painful, stess, i am going crazy, from morning the moment i step in office, i feel so giddy, dizzy, light headed and so out of place, until i am so scared to walk to go out for lunch, i rush to buy my food and rush back lke mad woman back to office, i thought i wil faint there untl i drop my wallet also i don'tcare, all i care is to find a quiet place and when i run to the store room i feel betterm storeroom i sso quiet and no one is there, i feel at peace. now i am again feeling so painful and headache feeling like my whole head want to burst and explode. i hv no control sometimes i feel scared, for nothing, when i look at people i feel so scared i can't even smile.the whole day today is hell and fustrating and maddness for me, i keep on runing and rush to se doctor, but he ask me to go home and rest and give me synflex , ...medciation for my headache.i am having bad headache now, got to go, thank you.,

[alba]

when i am alone just now buying stuff i took a bus and go to market place, and i enjoyed myself there, i love the smell of herbs and spices, i spent an hr there and felt so happy and better, i am all by myself alone. i thought everythng is ok well, but when icome home i got to face my husband moody face and unhappy face, he's a bit bad temper today, when i speak to him i expect him to be cheering for me,but he is so bad temper, and now, i reallyh felt so unbalanced and giddy, dizzy and light headed, i feel my chest is so heavy and head heavier and so painful why i can't depend on myself to be happy and ok, why other people reaction affected me so deeply and i get so stress by other people behaviour even in office or at home. why, i am so weak person. becos of this, i feel like my world is down and crumble. i am not strong to stand on my own, i guess my husband sense that, all i want is to depend on him to make me happy or less stress or just be nice cheerful and loving so that i can carry on my night with no stress and sleep better, i guess not, i am so so stress now. why i can't be independent on my own. i alwyas wnat my husband to love me. now i feel so crooked and unbalanced, i just thought i am going to recover. all i want to do is to recover, what is happening to me, why am i so weak?

[alba]

thanks, i took xananx before but i am scared to take now, becos eversince i took xanax after 1 yr i start to feel very very sleepy suddenly, out of sudden even while walking on the roadside, i just felt os so sleepy tht i nearly sleep walking or felt so drowsy, it is so frightening experience, after a year taking xanax i start to feel lousy, eventhough i wish i can take it xanax but i am still scared, it cos me to feel so sleepy, i feel i am so lost and blury. i am not sure is it becos of xanax?my cardio keep on giving me xanax ,i ve ben taking it for past 1 yr and stop this year onwards, becos i stargt having all these funny feelings like what i am feeling now. i feel very very sleepy everyday.

[theforester]

Hey Alba, Like I said before, I'm not a doctor, but it could be that you were taking the Xanax too often. I was taking 0.25mg everyday for a few weeks and it did make me feel really tired, but that's the only symptom I had. If you were taking it every day for over a year you probably built up a tolerance for it. That's the problem with drugs like Xanax, if you keep taking the same dose for a long time it doesn't work as well and you have to take more. If you started to feel bad again it could have just been that the drug wasn't working well at that dose anymore. I ended up taking the Xanax only when I knew I was going to have a really stressful day, and I would not let myself take it every day. I would only take it every other day.

What dose were you taking?

Did you take it every day?

How long were you on it?

I do think it could be helpful to set aside some time every day to just relax. Close your eyes, think about the smells of the marketplace, lay down or recline in a chair, try to relax all your muscles, and do some deep breathing the whole time. It may not do much, but after doing it everyday for a week or two it might help your body to relax a bit. That sort of thing has helped me a little bit. It hasn't made it go away, but it has helped.

Try to be positive, you CAN get better!

Take care Alba :hugs:

[alba]

could it be i am having a nervous breakdown? i really am going crazy, i can't sleep, don't hv th emood to eat, i am feeling so lost, all i want is not going to work and get on with my life. i want to forget the disappointment @work and ppl. i jsut want to be like what i am before. not this bad.will i ever be cured? can this anxiety, nervous breakdown, phobia stress, ever recover? can i be cured? i am so sad, i am missing alot in life.i don't even hv the mood to dress myself up, before i love to dress nicely, buy cloths , match all my clothing, make up now i just wake up from bed , wash face and off to work, no modd to bath or make up or comb hair, am i mad?

[alba]

thank you, how i wish i can relax more, i can't even, the doctor gave me some days off from work, but @work i am super busy, i am called back to do some admin work, alot of work waiting for me to do, it's all dateline, i can't even rest my brain, i got a chunk of work to do.

[alba]

i took xananx abt a year on and off, 0.25mg. for days when i feel bad. it helps in the begining, i love to take it to make me sleep.

[theforester]

I doubt that you are having a nervous breakdown or are crazy Alba, it sounds to me like you are just very anxious and under a large amount of stress. It is hard because it is a cycle that is not easy to break. All of your symptoms can be explained by bad anxiety. There are quite a few people on these forums that have recovered from this, fully. There is hope, it is not impossible. :)

Do you feel like this all the time or only when you are at work?

Haha, yeah Xanax can definitely help get you to sleep! It's not made for that, but it will certainly make you tired!

If you still have some of those 0.25mg pills I think you could try taking one to get you feeling a bit more relaxed right now. Or break it in half and only take half of it (if your pills can be split, mine could). If you do decide to take the Xanax try taking them 1x or 2x every week, it could help you to have some better days during the week and you wouldn't build up the tolerance to it very quickly.

If you haven't done it yet you could try going to a psychiatrist or a psychologist to help you through this for a while.

Good luck Alba, we're all in this together, you'll make it :flowers:

[tara1987]

hiya alba. if you dont want to take the xanax, the why dont you go back to the doctor, and ask to change it to a different tablet. also it seems to me that work is stressing you out so much. have you ever thought of changing your jobs? babe it cant be doing you any good at all, to be stuck in a place that makes you feel that way, because you will be stuck in a circleal. and im dont mean to offend at all, but it sounds like your husband is making you feel like rubbish too! if thats the case, have you tried some king or relationship thearapy? when ever you feel like you world crashing down, just think of your children, thats what i do! and even though it dont just cure you to come out of the moments of panic, but it snaps you back a little bit! im here for you! were all here for each other! x

[alba]

thankyou, ireally don't know why is it that each time istep in my office, and do my work computer kind of work at that moment i can feel as though my head is exploding, what is happening? is it the work? is it stress, nervous breakdown or what, i can't sit on my place, ijust feel like dizzy, light heared and head so tense and exploding. i don't hv that bad at home or anything, it just happen anytime. each time i feel i 've no fun or happiness i will start to feel like this. there is nothing that makes me happy in life at htis moment, i guess when i stop working, i can think over what i want to do in life. i hv tried hard at work, but ppl keep on bulying and taking advantage o fme and critize me and i feel so down everyday. and now my husband is so moody and keep on scolding me, and i can't takt it. i got no support.i feel how nice if i can go travelling but i can't becos i cant' take leave from work.

[alba]

yeah it is true, it is happening over and over, i got no time to rest, everyday is this happening, tdy i am on medical leave but being call to work becos of busy and work, i got to go and work, my head is exploding, and when i ask someone for help, some other ppl is not willing to help i hv to run here and there to get stuff. i am very stress, just now my head nearly explode again. can't even rest.

[alba]

i feel so stress up just now,and now, suddenly i felt so so sleepy, drowsy and very very angry i feel so blury, i get so angry and irritated and feel so blank, my eyes can't open so sleepy myhead is so congested,this is always happening i can't even think. yesterday evening i felt good i can go shopping with full concentration, but tdy i am down again, could it be cos by mywork