SarahP
07-05-09, 09:49
Sorry to be whinging, but I just feel so fed up today. My GAD has totally taken over me physically at the moment, and I feel so tired and achey, like someone is sitting on me!
Also, I tried to sleep last night, and everytime I started to drift off, my brain would panic and jerk me back to being awake. It's almost like when I'm awake I'm vaguely able to be in control, but when I'm relaxing to sleep my mind goes crazy and I start panicking. it can be any thought at all that panics me. Does anyone else ever get this when they are trying to sleep? Also I'm often reluctant to sleep as I know I'll wake up to feeling bad again. There's a nasty part of my brain that tells me I don't deserve to relax and be happy, and that part is winning at the moment.
I started taking Citalopram about a week ago (cut my 20mg tabs in half at first) and seemed to be doing ok, but tried to up my dose a few days ago which has coincided with me feeling like this. I've tried so many tablets, and I realy want to stick these out. But I just don't know if it's my own anxiety or the drugs making me feel this bad at the moment.
I just don't know which way to turn and all I want to do is sleep, but of course I can't do that!
Argh. Sorry for ranting and rambling, I just needed to get some stuff out. Anyone ever feel similar?
Thanks for reading
Sarah xx
Also, I tried to sleep last night, and everytime I started to drift off, my brain would panic and jerk me back to being awake. It's almost like when I'm awake I'm vaguely able to be in control, but when I'm relaxing to sleep my mind goes crazy and I start panicking. it can be any thought at all that panics me. Does anyone else ever get this when they are trying to sleep? Also I'm often reluctant to sleep as I know I'll wake up to feeling bad again. There's a nasty part of my brain that tells me I don't deserve to relax and be happy, and that part is winning at the moment.
I started taking Citalopram about a week ago (cut my 20mg tabs in half at first) and seemed to be doing ok, but tried to up my dose a few days ago which has coincided with me feeling like this. I've tried so many tablets, and I realy want to stick these out. But I just don't know if it's my own anxiety or the drugs making me feel this bad at the moment.
I just don't know which way to turn and all I want to do is sleep, but of course I can't do that!
Argh. Sorry for ranting and rambling, I just needed to get some stuff out. Anyone ever feel similar?
Thanks for reading
Sarah xx