Erinath
09-05-09, 12:06
Where to begin? I generally have a rather stressful life, my mother has an incurable degenerative disease, my brother has severe mental health problems (he's been sectioned a couple of times) and our son (the third of our 4 children) is considered special needs .... though we're still awaiting a diagnosis.
Well, my brother seems to have health anxiety as well now, so when he started saying he'd found a lump in a rather personal place, we were so used to him constantly thinking he had cancer that we weren't concerned. His doctor said to wait to see if the lump went by itself. It hasn't. Now he's been booked for a scan. I'm trying not to worry, but with him it's more about how the stress will affect him. Stress is a huge trigger for my brother (isn't it for most people though?) and my main concern is that he's going to end up back in the psychiatric ward ... or worse.
The other thing that's getting to me, and compared to that it may sound like nothing, is this: as I said, my son's a special needs child, he's still undergoing diagnosis. We suspected it was an autistic spectrum disorder, but were treated in a very off manner & told it wasn't. His last check-up at the child development centre was a total about turn, the paediatrician said she could see why we thought it was an asd & he's been referred to the autistic spectrum clinic. The appointment came through today. I've now got such a mixture of emotions going on, partially feeling as though I've wished this upon him by me keeping on asking for him to be assessed for it, partially scared in case he is & therefore my little cushion of denial goes away that it's not something long term, partially scared that the appointment just comes back inclusive as round here they tend not to diagnose asd until a child is around 8 (he's 5). Waiting for him to get diagnosed is such a roller coaster of emotions & really isn't helping me at all. I just want what's best for my son.
So, all in all, this week has been pretty tough on me. Sorry for moaning, but felt I had to have some sort of outlet.
Well, my brother seems to have health anxiety as well now, so when he started saying he'd found a lump in a rather personal place, we were so used to him constantly thinking he had cancer that we weren't concerned. His doctor said to wait to see if the lump went by itself. It hasn't. Now he's been booked for a scan. I'm trying not to worry, but with him it's more about how the stress will affect him. Stress is a huge trigger for my brother (isn't it for most people though?) and my main concern is that he's going to end up back in the psychiatric ward ... or worse.
The other thing that's getting to me, and compared to that it may sound like nothing, is this: as I said, my son's a special needs child, he's still undergoing diagnosis. We suspected it was an autistic spectrum disorder, but were treated in a very off manner & told it wasn't. His last check-up at the child development centre was a total about turn, the paediatrician said she could see why we thought it was an asd & he's been referred to the autistic spectrum clinic. The appointment came through today. I've now got such a mixture of emotions going on, partially feeling as though I've wished this upon him by me keeping on asking for him to be assessed for it, partially scared in case he is & therefore my little cushion of denial goes away that it's not something long term, partially scared that the appointment just comes back inclusive as round here they tend not to diagnose asd until a child is around 8 (he's 5). Waiting for him to get diagnosed is such a roller coaster of emotions & really isn't helping me at all. I just want what's best for my son.
So, all in all, this week has been pretty tough on me. Sorry for moaning, but felt I had to have some sort of outlet.