wiskersonkittens
11-05-09, 15:42
Over a week ago I posted about my abdominal ultrasound results and my concern about it. I had to get one because I have been having some pain between my ribs and my tummy. What was found were cysts on the liver (common), a lymph node around my stomach area (which, at the time, was noted common), and a slightly enlarged spleen. Of course I googled "enlarged spleen" and had myself motified.
Well, I had to go for a CT scan of the area and there was good news and bad news (potentially) -- The good news was all my other organs looked fine and normal (even my liver with its cyst friends). Yet, there is a relatively large lymph node near my spleen (which could be causing the enlargment, or vice versa) that NOW I have to get biopsied to err on the side of caution. My doctor isn't overly concerned -- he told me, "I know you are a worrier and I just want you to know I am not worried about this, but since it is causing you pain, it isn't something I feel we should just let go" -- because I don't have the symptoms of lymphoma (ie night sweats, fevers, weight loss . . .) and I am hoping the fact that my blood results from October, which came back perfect, is an indicator that nothing is too awry. I would imagine even then if cancer were forming, my white blood cell count would be off. Anyway, I go for an MRI this week so the surgeon can get a better look at this lymph node and know more specifically where to biopsy.
I am a little worried because I have been blessed with good health all my life and I don't know how to deal with this. Of course, the results could have been worse, but the fact they found anything at all . . . well, no doubt I feel like I am in a dream.
I can't imagine what is going on with me. I have even been more achey lately -- I am hoping more so from anxiety and muscle tension, because I feel better when I am moving around and not thinking about things-- so that concerns me. I just don't know what to think and I don't have a lot of support here. Hubby doesn't understand and is complaining to everyone how I just want to sit and worry about this (I have OCD, it's my nature). My FIL told him worry means a lack of faith, and he supports hubby by being empathetic to him -("you need some time to yourself, I know this is hard on you.")- I AM THE ONE WHO COULD HAVE CANCER, not him! And, to worry is human, especially when you find out something isn't quite right. I am not a demon child because of this. Ugh! Sorry -- that wound is still fresh.
Anyway, I just wanted to share. I am in need of hugs. :hugs: Wiskers ~
Well, I had to go for a CT scan of the area and there was good news and bad news (potentially) -- The good news was all my other organs looked fine and normal (even my liver with its cyst friends). Yet, there is a relatively large lymph node near my spleen (which could be causing the enlargment, or vice versa) that NOW I have to get biopsied to err on the side of caution. My doctor isn't overly concerned -- he told me, "I know you are a worrier and I just want you to know I am not worried about this, but since it is causing you pain, it isn't something I feel we should just let go" -- because I don't have the symptoms of lymphoma (ie night sweats, fevers, weight loss . . .) and I am hoping the fact that my blood results from October, which came back perfect, is an indicator that nothing is too awry. I would imagine even then if cancer were forming, my white blood cell count would be off. Anyway, I go for an MRI this week so the surgeon can get a better look at this lymph node and know more specifically where to biopsy.
I am a little worried because I have been blessed with good health all my life and I don't know how to deal with this. Of course, the results could have been worse, but the fact they found anything at all . . . well, no doubt I feel like I am in a dream.
I can't imagine what is going on with me. I have even been more achey lately -- I am hoping more so from anxiety and muscle tension, because I feel better when I am moving around and not thinking about things-- so that concerns me. I just don't know what to think and I don't have a lot of support here. Hubby doesn't understand and is complaining to everyone how I just want to sit and worry about this (I have OCD, it's my nature). My FIL told him worry means a lack of faith, and he supports hubby by being empathetic to him -("you need some time to yourself, I know this is hard on you.")- I AM THE ONE WHO COULD HAVE CANCER, not him! And, to worry is human, especially when you find out something isn't quite right. I am not a demon child because of this. Ugh! Sorry -- that wound is still fresh.
Anyway, I just wanted to share. I am in need of hugs. :hugs: Wiskers ~