PoppyC
11-05-09, 15:49
Hi
I work from home and have done this since I had a breakdown last year, and before that I had some very good jobs.
I am taking medication but I am not now seeing the results that I would have liked to, plus combining it with CBT, self help and diet.
I am overcoming my agoraphobia - however what I cant seem to overcome is the absolute fear of returning to work outside of the home. I start looking at vacancies and I almost provoke a panic attack. Just the thought of working with strangers, and the demands of work, and the stress of it all will make me ill again I know. I go into panic mode just visualising it. I know I need to stop working from home as I am isolated and that working outside the home will help me to feel less so, plus I know in the long run it will do me good, but how do I overcome how I feel. It makes me feel physically sick. Until I got unwell I was never like this! I am half the person I used to be I know that much.
Has anyone else ever been in this situation and what happened?
I am thinking of voluntary work and doing a college course, but again every time I start to put the idea into motion I panic and get sick.
I find this to be the worst aspect of dealing with my anxiety.
I have spent all day so far crying. I cant deal with anymore :weep: Everything seems to be overwhelming and such a struggle. Normally I can just about cope but I feel terrible and this is on medication too.
I work from home and have done this since I had a breakdown last year, and before that I had some very good jobs.
I am taking medication but I am not now seeing the results that I would have liked to, plus combining it with CBT, self help and diet.
I am overcoming my agoraphobia - however what I cant seem to overcome is the absolute fear of returning to work outside of the home. I start looking at vacancies and I almost provoke a panic attack. Just the thought of working with strangers, and the demands of work, and the stress of it all will make me ill again I know. I go into panic mode just visualising it. I know I need to stop working from home as I am isolated and that working outside the home will help me to feel less so, plus I know in the long run it will do me good, but how do I overcome how I feel. It makes me feel physically sick. Until I got unwell I was never like this! I am half the person I used to be I know that much.
Has anyone else ever been in this situation and what happened?
I am thinking of voluntary work and doing a college course, but again every time I start to put the idea into motion I panic and get sick.
I find this to be the worst aspect of dealing with my anxiety.
I have spent all day so far crying. I cant deal with anymore :weep: Everything seems to be overwhelming and such a struggle. Normally I can just about cope but I feel terrible and this is on medication too.