vixstar
26-08-05, 17:26
hey
i am fairly new, i left a message in the introduce yourslef section on tuesday.
i have to say that this week has been completely awful and i feel so lost at the moment right now.
after my panic attack/paranoia thing on monday night i decided that i could not take anymore of the tablets that the doctor had given me (i started taking citalopram on sunday and took another on monday-just to be clear!) i spoke to the doc and he said that if i felt that was the right thing to do then i should stop.
it turns out that this week has just got more horrible for me. i am having trouble sleeping, sleeping was my escape from things and this week i fear it. last night i woke up half way across my room turning on my light shaking like a leaf, i though a spider was haging from my ceiling it was sooooo real. i ended up sleeping with the light on. earlier in the evening i was having a shower and i had the need to get out of there, i got really dizzy and thought i would pass out, not very nice at all.
i just dont know what is going on with me. today at work i had a panic attack, feeling dizzy, had to hold onto the wall to keep me upright but i carried on with my work for about 20 mins. it was the end of the day so i brought myself home. right now i just feel angry, i wanna hit stuff, i want this feeling to go away.....
basically i guess i dont know what to do for the best
i have carried on feeling rubbish even though im not on the tablets anymore, so if i had carried on taking them would i be feeling better now?!?!?
so many questions.......
i just dont know what to do for the best.....
i dont know what to do with myself.....
i am fairly new, i left a message in the introduce yourslef section on tuesday.
i have to say that this week has been completely awful and i feel so lost at the moment right now.
after my panic attack/paranoia thing on monday night i decided that i could not take anymore of the tablets that the doctor had given me (i started taking citalopram on sunday and took another on monday-just to be clear!) i spoke to the doc and he said that if i felt that was the right thing to do then i should stop.
it turns out that this week has just got more horrible for me. i am having trouble sleeping, sleeping was my escape from things and this week i fear it. last night i woke up half way across my room turning on my light shaking like a leaf, i though a spider was haging from my ceiling it was sooooo real. i ended up sleeping with the light on. earlier in the evening i was having a shower and i had the need to get out of there, i got really dizzy and thought i would pass out, not very nice at all.
i just dont know what is going on with me. today at work i had a panic attack, feeling dizzy, had to hold onto the wall to keep me upright but i carried on with my work for about 20 mins. it was the end of the day so i brought myself home. right now i just feel angry, i wanna hit stuff, i want this feeling to go away.....
basically i guess i dont know what to do for the best
i have carried on feeling rubbish even though im not on the tablets anymore, so if i had carried on taking them would i be feeling better now?!?!?
so many questions.......
i just dont know what to do for the best.....
i dont know what to do with myself.....