dante
16-05-09, 16:30
well where do i begin, i suffer anxiety with obsessional thoughts. we can call it ocd but to me its still all based around anxiety.
it started 4 years back with a panic attack, then i was left with this anxious feeling, worse thing i did was look online for symptons and i found out it was anxiety i also started to read peoples stories and i read about intrusive thoughts about harming people. then i started to have them about my loved ones. it was a horrible time nothing seamed to ease the thoughts.they got worse i panicked more and the anxiety got worse.it went through stages where i felt detached and things seemed unreal.
the thoughts got really bad and i struggled, at work had thoughts of harming people it was a terrible time, me i am a big softy and not violent at all so it was the complete opposite to me.
i began to obsess on the thoughts and it seemed like it would never end.
but i began to accept the thoughts as an illness and slowely but surely it all began to ease, within 9 months i had the odd thought but never let it bother me and i was back to my old self.
This christmas it started all over again, funny the wife bout me a new top of the range laptop and i was feeling a little anxious then a thought to smash it popped in then the anxiety raced. all the old thoughts surfaced and thats where i am now.
i find it alot more difficult i dont just have thoughts i have anxious feelings which can last for days.
then today everything felt unreal, i cant relax, no reading or watching tv, am walking round the house like a caged animal and all through this i am having thoughts of harming my loved ones, it hell.
thing is i have been through it before and the only cure is from within, to accept the thoughts for what they are just intrusive thoughts and move on.
but am finding it really hard. does anyone else have that feeling its hard to explain like there thoughts are in control and a feeling of restlessness and unreality. just cant seem to concentrate on anything.
i am trying meditation it hard when u are anxious but i intend to carry on with it even through the rocky patches.
well that is my story hope i get better as quick as last time but then when your mind full of doubts and fears it very hard.
does anyone else feel they are throwing there thoughts in
thanks
it started 4 years back with a panic attack, then i was left with this anxious feeling, worse thing i did was look online for symptons and i found out it was anxiety i also started to read peoples stories and i read about intrusive thoughts about harming people. then i started to have them about my loved ones. it was a horrible time nothing seamed to ease the thoughts.they got worse i panicked more and the anxiety got worse.it went through stages where i felt detached and things seemed unreal.
the thoughts got really bad and i struggled, at work had thoughts of harming people it was a terrible time, me i am a big softy and not violent at all so it was the complete opposite to me.
i began to obsess on the thoughts and it seemed like it would never end.
but i began to accept the thoughts as an illness and slowely but surely it all began to ease, within 9 months i had the odd thought but never let it bother me and i was back to my old self.
This christmas it started all over again, funny the wife bout me a new top of the range laptop and i was feeling a little anxious then a thought to smash it popped in then the anxiety raced. all the old thoughts surfaced and thats where i am now.
i find it alot more difficult i dont just have thoughts i have anxious feelings which can last for days.
then today everything felt unreal, i cant relax, no reading or watching tv, am walking round the house like a caged animal and all through this i am having thoughts of harming my loved ones, it hell.
thing is i have been through it before and the only cure is from within, to accept the thoughts for what they are just intrusive thoughts and move on.
but am finding it really hard. does anyone else have that feeling its hard to explain like there thoughts are in control and a feeling of restlessness and unreality. just cant seem to concentrate on anything.
i am trying meditation it hard when u are anxious but i intend to carry on with it even through the rocky patches.
well that is my story hope i get better as quick as last time but then when your mind full of doubts and fears it very hard.
does anyone else feel they are throwing there thoughts in
thanks