justbananas
17-05-09, 00:40
and by this i mean - just last night i was having one of my episodes where i had a skull-crushing right sided pain in my head.. on top of dizziness, on top of feeling a strong pulse in my temple, in addition to waves of racing heart and stabbing pains. of course i'm thinking the worst and feeling all of this pain in my head and trying to ignore it but it stays.
this whole time i'd been in my room working online, etc.. well i got up to go get some food in the kitchen, and happened to get a phone call from a friend that i took.. and then caught the tail end of the Real Housewives of New York on the TV in the kitchen. and by the end of that i was half laughing and half wanting to throw something at the women on the show because they annoyed me so much.
anyway i get back upstairs and crawl into bed and i'm like, WTF, my head isn't hurting or anything. now i know we all know and discuss distraction and how sometimes it can make your symptoms disappear, but then they creep back in. but i am telling you - my head was KILLING me before i walked out of my room, and felt completely clear when i got back after having a few laughs and relaxing and eating. of course i started concentrating on it and it came back which almost made me laugh. i was like.. seriously, this is nuts. we pay far too much attention to every little ache and pain. i always think my left side is weird and numb and i drop things and i forget things and i overanalyze it and i freak out and i think i hear things etc. etc.. but maybe i need to start paying attention to other details, like triggers, and when this happens, and when it's NOT happening. and that may help me understand it as anxiety, which i know it is. but it could help manage it somehow ??
honestly i could not believe the power of my mind. i was able to induce a migraine just by laying there and thinking about how it was interesting that i didn't have one. i swear i even felt myself contracting muscles in my head and neck i didn't even know were there. WHY do we do this! i'm going to start paying more attention and keeping a symptoms diary i think. sounds not fun but maybe taking note of these things will help? anyone ever notice this? :shrug:
this whole time i'd been in my room working online, etc.. well i got up to go get some food in the kitchen, and happened to get a phone call from a friend that i took.. and then caught the tail end of the Real Housewives of New York on the TV in the kitchen. and by the end of that i was half laughing and half wanting to throw something at the women on the show because they annoyed me so much.
anyway i get back upstairs and crawl into bed and i'm like, WTF, my head isn't hurting or anything. now i know we all know and discuss distraction and how sometimes it can make your symptoms disappear, but then they creep back in. but i am telling you - my head was KILLING me before i walked out of my room, and felt completely clear when i got back after having a few laughs and relaxing and eating. of course i started concentrating on it and it came back which almost made me laugh. i was like.. seriously, this is nuts. we pay far too much attention to every little ache and pain. i always think my left side is weird and numb and i drop things and i forget things and i overanalyze it and i freak out and i think i hear things etc. etc.. but maybe i need to start paying attention to other details, like triggers, and when this happens, and when it's NOT happening. and that may help me understand it as anxiety, which i know it is. but it could help manage it somehow ??
honestly i could not believe the power of my mind. i was able to induce a migraine just by laying there and thinking about how it was interesting that i didn't have one. i swear i even felt myself contracting muscles in my head and neck i didn't even know were there. WHY do we do this! i'm going to start paying more attention and keeping a symptoms diary i think. sounds not fun but maybe taking note of these things will help? anyone ever notice this? :shrug: