im so scared

[bashley]

Hi I really can't cope anymore. I have had heart flutters for years now, but sometimes i can manage to soldier on, but at this present time they are getting me down.
I am getting aches and pains, I drive everyone up the wall with my obsession with having a heart attack. My doctor has totally lost patience with me. I have had a heart monitor which said all is ok apart from odd fast beats, i have had ecgs all ok.Also had chest x-rays. This all started when I had the excercise test 4 years ago which said results show there may be problem with my heart, that was it I totally freaked out so I paid to go private to have a heart scan which said i had zero calcium so no blockage, then I went to bupa and saw top cardioloigist and he said everything was fine and to take no notice of the exercise test as i have been checked out. But now when I have a palpatation or a ache across the chest thats it im convinced im dying. Im scared of leaving my wonderful children and husband . Please reassure me I'm crying as i type this as i'm so low:weep: I was put on citroplan and diazipan in November as my doctor thinks Im suffering from depression as I have had alot happen in my life and he thinks this is why im having anxiety attacks. But I came off the pills as i felt no better in fact sometimes worse.

[bingley]

Hi Bashley, I really understand what you are going through. I too suffer from irregular, fast heartbeats, somtimes for 15-20 mins at a time, and it really frightens me. My doctor said it was part of the anxiety, and that I should,nt worry. Heart diseaese runs in my familly, and I have not been for any tests. I have lost faith in doctors after being prescribed lots of differant medications, some of which worsened my anxiety, none of which really helped. How do I know which symptoms are due to gad and which are a genuine medical problem, I feel lost:scared15:

[Veronica H]

:welcome: Bashley

your story is familiar to many of us here with anxiety. Palpitations are a daily occurence for me and I to have had my heart monitored and checked and all is fine. I have learnt to ignore them. I was even having them on the tread mill this morning. There is a brilliant book by Dr Claire Weekes called 'self help for your nerves', published by Thorsons. This is available from the NMP Shop. Her work can also be downloaded free to your MP3 from the shop. I can not recommend this enough as it really explains what is happening to us, and how we can recover. Glad you have found us.

Veronica

[Panickypants]

God it sdounds like i have just wrote your post. i am scared to death my heart is going to stop beating.. it's the flutters and aches that make me feel the worst..I too panic more cosw i'm scared of leaving my kids and my hubby..it's awful. hope your feeling better soon x x

[drummermike]

Hi .......... curious as to your age.

Anyway the Heart is an amazing organ. It can withstand more then you could ever give it. If you ever had the opportunity to actually hold one and dissect it you would be super amazed at how strong this muscle is.

Have your husband or a body builder make a muscle in his bicep (arm muscle) real hard and that is how strong this muscle organ is. If you have zero calcium issues, or at low risk for heart disease i.e., family history, diabetes, smoking, etc ...... odds are you are very fine. You can't take down the heart easily. People soooo abuse this muscle all the time, and even in their 60's and 70's they just start to get effects.

Your mind is actually the only thing more powerful then the heart muscle. I get palpitations occasionally some real strong ....... and I basically just let it happen. Then nothing for months, then again after a cup of coffee, then nothing, then again when upset or stressed etc .......

One thing I do know, is fear is usually due to lack of understanding. Get on a Cardiology site that explains the heart in detail ...... see how amazing it is ... lean about it. But honestly you're worry will not stop it ticking. :)

By the way 30 minutes of minor walking and exercise 3 times a week usually eliminates benign palpitations .......... because the free floating adrenaline gets used up .........

[bashley]

Thanks drummer mike

it has reassured me a little feel really down today as flutters are bad my age is 36 by the way:)

[joyvid]

I am a new member but have suffered from panic attacks for around 21 years, since my mum died from cancer. I just came on board really because I like Veronica read the book by Claire Weekes (self help for your nerves) and wanted just to let people know that the doctor that wrote it suffered with panic attacks herself and completely understands everything that people go through, and she talks about irregular heart beats and everything, she has gone on to do more books, peace from nervous suffering and tapes and everything, I have the book, it is my bible, if you read the book and understand it you will be free of panic attacks and understand everything about what happens to your body. By no means am I saying that it is not a hard process, but some people feel cured after they have read her books just because every thing that has happened to them just falls into place, it certainly gives you a new outlook, I highly recommend the book, it has done wonders for me, not saying I dont panic any more but I am not half as frightened as i used to be before I understood, and I was recommended the book by a psychologist who I was seeing through my doctor, I thought, but dont you understand I couldnt concentrate on a book, but believe me, read it from cover to cover she has books on agoraphobia and everything it is all part and parcel of the same thing, I cant praise her enough. Hope you will take notice and get the book, no matter what else you have read. Hope this helps, I know how you are suffering. Joyce xx

[paul 34]

Well for me thats the worst part of it being out somewhere(when you actually feel like goin out) and your heart starts racing. I was really depressed towards the end of last year but never had any panic attacks or if i did i didnt notice it them.
My panic only started this Jan 2009(when i moved out of my flat and back into my and dads house and also changed universitys) and has changed my life for the worst but even going out for walks is shocking sometimes i havnt been able to see any of my friends like normal and watch the footabll in the pub and generally socialise like i used to.
I now think sometimes that the source of all this was moving out of my own place plus my dad was hard to handle being so ill my mums such a strong person(shes my hero and always has been)
But even not seeing my friends and having my mum supporting me is a blessing but i dont want to be a burden i want to get back to being active again and help her out with anything she wants shopping,housework like i used to.(sorry again for the long posts) :)