lindzanne
18-05-09, 19:49
I have felt so bad the last few days, posted about this before but just cant get over it. Few months ago had a bladder infection that took awhile to clear up, and I still have a lot of external sensitivity "down there", which the doctor said was just irritation. It is getting very slowly better but is a constant reminder of my panic since the physical sensation is so annoying. Then got put on birth control which is causing me some cramps and i keep pushing on my pelvis to check myself out.
To make a long story short when I got the bladder infection I decided it was ovarian cancer. Thats right, I use the term decided because i know that is the reality of it. I am convinced Im dying, and am so mad because im newly married and keep thinking about all I wanted to do before I went.
I have been to the doctor so many times and really cant afford to go just to allay my fears. And he knew about my anxiety and was so nice about it. He felt my ovaries are normal size but of course how can he actually tell? especially after all Ive read about women who went so long without a diagnosis even when their ovaries felt fine? I am at the point in my health anxiety where I see doctors as enemies who really dont care and just want to rush you out of there.
Is is possible to push on a part of your body so much you bruise it to the point you really think there is pain and something wrong?
Is it possible my doctor is RIGHT?
I am so depressed and confused.
Trying really hard to manage this though, just need some support. :weep:
To make a long story short when I got the bladder infection I decided it was ovarian cancer. Thats right, I use the term decided because i know that is the reality of it. I am convinced Im dying, and am so mad because im newly married and keep thinking about all I wanted to do before I went.
I have been to the doctor so many times and really cant afford to go just to allay my fears. And he knew about my anxiety and was so nice about it. He felt my ovaries are normal size but of course how can he actually tell? especially after all Ive read about women who went so long without a diagnosis even when their ovaries felt fine? I am at the point in my health anxiety where I see doctors as enemies who really dont care and just want to rush you out of there.
Is is possible to push on a part of your body so much you bruise it to the point you really think there is pain and something wrong?
Is it possible my doctor is RIGHT?
I am so depressed and confused.
Trying really hard to manage this though, just need some support. :weep: