alibali
19-05-09, 01:45
Hi everyone,
My name is Alison, I'm 43 years of age. I have one grown up daughter who is 21 & a grandson who is 18mths old. That sounds lovely doesn't it? And it should be & it is...... except for me. I'm the fly in the ointment. I came upon this site by accident when googling citalopram which my doctor prescribed me & I have been taking for 2 weeks now. I was having really bad anxiety, constant bad feeling & panic attacks. Also feeling very depressed & worthless. I am also on 80mls daily of methadone because of addiction to heroin. Please don't judge me, as we all have paths in life & unfortunately this is the path I went down in my life.
I didn't have an easy childhood (who does?) there was abuse & alcoholism & violence & when I was fifteen I met a man???? who showed an interest in me, and I was so desperate to escape the (as I seen it then) horridness of my family life, I took up with him for what I thought was fun & adventure & relief from the drudgery. Unfortunately it wasn't long until this Prince Charming turned into a horrible big Toad & abuse, violence, fear, anxiety & control became a part of my everyday life. Somehow I couldn't escape & it was a full 9 years later that I finally managed to get away from him, although it wasn't until just before Christmas last year that I managed to get the courage to cut all ties with him completely & forever.
I was first sent to a psychiatrist by my parents when I was 14, I still don't know why to be honest, & I was first prescribed anti-deppressants when I was 15. I first attempted suicide at this age as well. Since then my life has been a very rocky road of prescription drugs, non prescription drugs, psychiatrists, psychologists, anxiety, depression, painfully low self esteem & a never ending search for validation outside of myself.
Very long story short, I'm currently on 80mls of methadone & 20mg of citalopram daily. I don't drink alcohol or take any other drugs, prescribed or otherwise. I see a cpn once weekly & am waiting to start with another psychologist, hopefully in the very near future.
As I said I came upon this site by chance when googling citalopram because of the variety of side effects I was having which were actually making my anxiety/panic worse & i found the thread I read very helpful(all the side effects I am having are mentioned by various members) so decided to join this forum & hopefully get support, help & advice from you. I don't feel alone anymore.
I'm sorry that this post is so long & I hope that it hasn't bored or offended anyone. As Ive said in my title. I'm glad Ive found you.
Alison.:)
My name is Alison, I'm 43 years of age. I have one grown up daughter who is 21 & a grandson who is 18mths old. That sounds lovely doesn't it? And it should be & it is...... except for me. I'm the fly in the ointment. I came upon this site by accident when googling citalopram which my doctor prescribed me & I have been taking for 2 weeks now. I was having really bad anxiety, constant bad feeling & panic attacks. Also feeling very depressed & worthless. I am also on 80mls daily of methadone because of addiction to heroin. Please don't judge me, as we all have paths in life & unfortunately this is the path I went down in my life.
I didn't have an easy childhood (who does?) there was abuse & alcoholism & violence & when I was fifteen I met a man???? who showed an interest in me, and I was so desperate to escape the (as I seen it then) horridness of my family life, I took up with him for what I thought was fun & adventure & relief from the drudgery. Unfortunately it wasn't long until this Prince Charming turned into a horrible big Toad & abuse, violence, fear, anxiety & control became a part of my everyday life. Somehow I couldn't escape & it was a full 9 years later that I finally managed to get away from him, although it wasn't until just before Christmas last year that I managed to get the courage to cut all ties with him completely & forever.
I was first sent to a psychiatrist by my parents when I was 14, I still don't know why to be honest, & I was first prescribed anti-deppressants when I was 15. I first attempted suicide at this age as well. Since then my life has been a very rocky road of prescription drugs, non prescription drugs, psychiatrists, psychologists, anxiety, depression, painfully low self esteem & a never ending search for validation outside of myself.
Very long story short, I'm currently on 80mls of methadone & 20mg of citalopram daily. I don't drink alcohol or take any other drugs, prescribed or otherwise. I see a cpn once weekly & am waiting to start with another psychologist, hopefully in the very near future.
As I said I came upon this site by chance when googling citalopram because of the variety of side effects I was having which were actually making my anxiety/panic worse & i found the thread I read very helpful(all the side effects I am having are mentioned by various members) so decided to join this forum & hopefully get support, help & advice from you. I don't feel alone anymore.
I'm sorry that this post is so long & I hope that it hasn't bored or offended anyone. As Ive said in my title. I'm glad Ive found you.
Alison.:)