Elle-Kay
28-08-05, 13:54
Hi all,
I know I don't drop in so often anymore, what with work, home life etc., but I'm really feeling the need to vent in the presence of some kindered spirits at the moment.
As I type, a friend is on his way to visit me from Norfolk. I originally met him on the 'net, but we met up in person with a group of other friends about a month ago, and so this will be the second time I've met him "properly". That all sounds reasonable, and nothing to worry about, right? Well, no. I'm feeling all the usual things, and my fight or flight response is yo-yo'ing all over the place as we speak. I don't really know why. The only things I can pin it on are that 1) the last time I met him, I was with a lot of other people, including my BF (who can't be here now), and 2) this guy is super-confident, and can be a bit black and white over things - he knows about my anxiety and so on, and to a certain extent is supportive, but he doesn't quite understand yet that it isn't just a case of "get up and do it" for me; I guess I'm worried that he won't understand, and will inadvertantly do or say the wrong thing if I have a full blown attack, whereas my BF knows what to do, and how to handle me.
Anyway, I've had my Kalms, and my Rescue Remedy so I'm hoping to start feeling better soon (as long as I don't think about the meal I'm meant to be going out for with him later!). I just wanted to pour my heart out for a bit though, and I knew people here would understand :)
Leah.
--- Obstacles are what you see when you take your eyes off the goal.
I know I don't drop in so often anymore, what with work, home life etc., but I'm really feeling the need to vent in the presence of some kindered spirits at the moment.
As I type, a friend is on his way to visit me from Norfolk. I originally met him on the 'net, but we met up in person with a group of other friends about a month ago, and so this will be the second time I've met him "properly". That all sounds reasonable, and nothing to worry about, right? Well, no. I'm feeling all the usual things, and my fight or flight response is yo-yo'ing all over the place as we speak. I don't really know why. The only things I can pin it on are that 1) the last time I met him, I was with a lot of other people, including my BF (who can't be here now), and 2) this guy is super-confident, and can be a bit black and white over things - he knows about my anxiety and so on, and to a certain extent is supportive, but he doesn't quite understand yet that it isn't just a case of "get up and do it" for me; I guess I'm worried that he won't understand, and will inadvertantly do or say the wrong thing if I have a full blown attack, whereas my BF knows what to do, and how to handle me.
Anyway, I've had my Kalms, and my Rescue Remedy so I'm hoping to start feeling better soon (as long as I don't think about the meal I'm meant to be going out for with him later!). I just wanted to pour my heart out for a bit though, and I knew people here would understand :)
Leah.
--- Obstacles are what you see when you take your eyes off the goal.