mlondon
20-05-09, 02:08
Hi everyone
I always mean to come on here when I am doing fine to write a positive message and haven't got round to it but hopefully this is mainly positive.
I haven't written on here for quite a few months now. Against all the odds and with the help of medication and family, I moved to Australia, began my studies and am developing a life here. I live with my gran which is a real help. I have been out and about, flown alone to see family and generally have got better and better, in fact I have felt generally 'normal'.
However there are things that make me anxious. I have met a guy I like and I am worried I will become too anxious about seeing him and then won't be able to. Also I smoked some weed on monday, now this is something i never do, but i had a 'what the hell' moment. I literally had 2 puffs that was it. But I know what it can do to people so the guilt and worry has been playing on my mind for the past 2 days. I am now feeling anxious and find it hard to concentrate, i want to stem this anxiety in the bud. It was pretty hard to go to work today but i knew i had to as I don't want to spiral.
Any advice would be good ...
I always mean to come on here when I am doing fine to write a positive message and haven't got round to it but hopefully this is mainly positive.
I haven't written on here for quite a few months now. Against all the odds and with the help of medication and family, I moved to Australia, began my studies and am developing a life here. I live with my gran which is a real help. I have been out and about, flown alone to see family and generally have got better and better, in fact I have felt generally 'normal'.
However there are things that make me anxious. I have met a guy I like and I am worried I will become too anxious about seeing him and then won't be able to. Also I smoked some weed on monday, now this is something i never do, but i had a 'what the hell' moment. I literally had 2 puffs that was it. But I know what it can do to people so the guilt and worry has been playing on my mind for the past 2 days. I am now feeling anxious and find it hard to concentrate, i want to stem this anxiety in the bud. It was pretty hard to go to work today but i knew i had to as I don't want to spiral.
Any advice would be good ...