having a really crap day

[Str33tb0y]

Hi,

Im feeling really low today, Im not really sure why i feel so down today. I guess its the thought of spending another holiday weekend on my tod. I hate this isolated feeling it makes me so upset. Im going to visit Mind tomorrow as I have the day off work, im hoping it will help a bit, cos I cant go on feeling like this, today is one of those days when I wish I didnt exist...I hate this feeling :(

[PoppyC]

Hi Str33b0y
I am sorry you are having a cr*pp day - it's only the morning though and the day may improve yet. Have hope.
You are not alone - there are so many people these days in this type of situation.
I think whenever it is a bank holiday, Christmas or Easter, then if we are on our own, it feels that much worse for us. I live opposite what can only be described as a modern day 'Waltons' type family. They seem such a big happy smiley cheerful funloving family with kids, and lots of friends and relatives always going in and out of their house, and they are always off, with their jetski thingy's, and cycles, and having parties and barbecues - they always seem so happy and off out doing something all together and its everything I would love but never got and sometimes I look across and think we only live across the road but it may as well be different worlds in how different our lives are. They must see me as the odd woman who rarely gets out living across the road - who lives with someone - but who is mostly on her own (even tho I like being on my own) :wacko:
I notice this more when its a holiday time. It makes me down. I then to get myself out of it think Maybe its not so great as it looks - scratch the surface and all that. Maybe that family has its own issues. I am rambling here. Sorry.
I guess what I am trying to say is that we always think people are having a far better time than what we are and that makes us feel down and lonely.
I can understand what you are saying (even if you can't understand me! lol)
Is there anyone at all that you can visit this bank holiday? anywhere where you want to visit - even if it is on your own? a museum, an event, a concert? go walking? cycling? camping? clothes shopping? what about the gym? going for a run? Just doing something that you would not usually do? What about going on a dating site and dating like mad for a while??? just for the chance to meet new people? are there any local groups that may interest you in your area? what about doing some voluntary work for a few hours for a charity?
Please don't get too down. I know where you are coming from and really can relate to you...but getting down is not going to make things any better I find, even though I know its difficult.
Are there any meet ups in your area soon? Are there any people in your area who use this site?
At least you get to visit MIND - I dont have one where I live.
Keep posting or PM me if you want to.

[Str33tb0y]

thanks Poppy, you are so sweet. Your posts always make me smile. and you dont ramble at all. Im sorry for sounding like a complete lame arse. Im just sick sorry and tired of not having a life outside of work, I hate it. I try and fill my time with stuff, the problem is all the activities hobbies that I do are all very individual. I might attempt to go swimming as its the only form of excercise I think I could possibly face at the moment...having said that Im embarrased about my skinny appearance so that may put me off...what am I like...

just want work today to go quick and then I can go home and not let everyone see how down in the dumps I am today...my chin is on the floor. know normally I would have a lump in my throat and feel pretty teary, but the citalopram stops me from crying which i find kinda weird, but i guess its a good thing..dunno im not sure anymore. In fact Im not really entirely sure about anything anymore..

[PoppyC]

I am sweet??? :unsure: Thank You :blush:
Please don't go home and get upset :weep:
Where's Poet today??? Maybe he could cheer you up!
You are fortunate in that you are working and it can't be easy for you when you feel as you do, but at least you have work to keep you occupied. Is there anyone at work who you could socialise with? do they ever have any organised events out of work?
I am sure you are not skinny but even if you are, then it appears to others you look sporty and fit (see it that way) Anyway look around you at the pool, how many people have the body beautiful??? Just jump in the pool and enjoy it. Look at male models - none of them have much weight on them and the look right now is very slim for male models. I am trying to think what that advert is - I think its the Lynx advert - where that guy is in the shop and that dark haired woman walks in, in her bikini and then he turns around to look at her and she looks at him, and he just has his shorts on - he is really slim and gorgeous!!! Just switch off and dont allow yourself to worry what other people think of you. Who cares what they think and who are they to judge? Rambling again... lol
I am on citalopram and I find that I can get upset to a point but then a safety mechanism seems to kick in and I can't get further upset - not like how I used to be able to.
Maybe today you are having a blip on citalopram - I have plenty of those. However when they pass then I have a run of very good days.
Do you have any family that you could visit?
Its going to rain all bank holiday so at least everyone wont be out enjoying themselves! that will make me feel better anyway & less like the only person on the planet not invited to the party! :D

[21girl]

streetboy you are not alone. you have us. You are never alone with this, we are all here to help and guide you.

We all have better days than some, but what matters is that you come through them. And you will, wont you? You have done it befoer so why not now? it;s no difference.

I'm not preaching to you btw, im just trying to help x

[Str33tb0y]

lol I wish I looked like the guy in lynx advert...hes got muscles...ive got..well bone really lol!. But yeah your right Im gonna try and not take any notice...where abouts are you from the weather is set to be lovely down south... Its an outdoor pool anyway where I live so im hoping its at least dry and the waters not bloody freezin :)


You could be right maybe im having a blip today, Im not sure tbh, I know I woke up this morning feeling really down and anxious, just like i Felt before I started taking meds about a month ago now.

Still Im gonna make a visit to mind tomorrow morning and then ive got a visit to the gp in the afternoon to look forward too.

thanks for posting it means a lot :)

[Str33tb0y]

thanks 21girl your right I know I will get through it...just hope I dont wake up tomorrow like i did this morning, sometimes I really hate my life its just s**te, but Im the only one who can do something about it...


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