darkphantom
30-08-05, 18:16
hi guys
sorry was bad again last night and took pills, made me sick, and still drinking.
thought today would be good cos it my birthday, how wrong i was, it the llonelness day i had, havent heard from anyone, except lea who again was there with me on the phone last nite and talk to me today, wanted to hear from people close to me, so sorry i was right ppl hate me it feels awlful every year the same, it suppose to be great day with people you love, that a joke noone loves me and today just proved it. i find in it harder each day.
cant even go out the house now, i truely wish that i was never born.
so much want to go out and have some fun but you cant do it on your own, and lea to far away, guess it not ment to be, just wish i would sleep for ever especially today.
i love you guys
it so hard
take care
susie :(
sorry was bad again last night and took pills, made me sick, and still drinking.
thought today would be good cos it my birthday, how wrong i was, it the llonelness day i had, havent heard from anyone, except lea who again was there with me on the phone last nite and talk to me today, wanted to hear from people close to me, so sorry i was right ppl hate me it feels awlful every year the same, it suppose to be great day with people you love, that a joke noone loves me and today just proved it. i find in it harder each day.
cant even go out the house now, i truely wish that i was never born.
so much want to go out and have some fun but you cant do it on your own, and lea to far away, guess it not ment to be, just wish i would sleep for ever especially today.
i love you guys
it so hard
take care
susie :(